XOXO- by: ?

Never Felt This Way Before...

---------------hello everyone, I felt like writing these last 2 days because I have felt okay and not the greatest. So I have been writing. I want to let you guys, you make a lot of my pain go away. love you guys!--------------

                  

What is my heart feeling? Hearts are only supposed to pump this fast when there is something big going to happen. You stood there while I gave you a blank sigh on my face, "All I want is to be friends. I don't want to hurt you." I thought to myself you already did, why are you trying to make me suffer even more? I didn't want to talk to you anymore. No one was home, this was my time to slam the door and go upstairs and let out my feelings.

I did as what I planned, slammed the door into your face and ran upstairs to my hidden spot where I only go when I am having my deepest days. My legs were shaking when I was running when I heard the door open. When I was half way up I looked backed to see you coming straight at me. My feet got wobbly and I had lost my balance. My feet came closer to my body as I just laid on the stairs and buried my head into my knees.

About 10 seconds I had felt hands, they felt welcoming but I knew it was you.... I didn't look up and you grabbed me bridal style. I looked up after a minute or two when I saw we were outside... You were still caring me as I was a butterfly in your hand with a broken wing. He saw me looking up and said in a very quiet voice that I could barely hear, "Close your eyes, I know where to go." My eyes became heavy and began to close to the sound of his voice.

When I was just waking up his hands dropped to my waist as he let me go, "I want you to do me a favor. Go by that stop sign and stop there." As he said that he pointed down to the stop sign about half of a football field. I'm trusting on what he said, as I walked to the stop sign. When I reached to the stop sign there was a breeze that went through my hair. "Ready?" he said as I looked at him in confusion.

"I want you to run to me at full speed and when you reach to me don't stop!" he yelled as I gave him a weak thumb up. My left foot went in front of the right as I began to run... I felt like I could fly. I closed my eyes and just kept running until I felt your arms. I finally felt trusting hands for once in my lifetime. Do you ever feel like someone is going to change your life? Maybe that person is the one you fall deeply in love with? I have never felt this way before...

XOXO- ?