Magic of the Past

Awkward situation

We've just gotten back at Kateryna's house and she's cooking more food to fill our hungry bodies. Meanwhile she's doing this I walk outside with John to talk about what happened. Still frustrated he accepted to walk with me and as soon as the door is closed, I ask him why he seems so annoyed. He acts like he doesn't know so I stop asking, but this doesn't work this time. I really need to know what's going on, because I feel like it's important. After a lot of twisting around the problem he finally decides to answer what he is having so much trouble with. "She shouldn't have kissed you", John says. I look at him while trying to explain I don't feel anything for her and that he can have her, as he tells me to stop talking. Of course I don't want to start a fight and I shut my mouth. "It's not that I like her", John continues. Of course I do not believe this and ask him what his problem is then. I had just finished my sentence and John goes straight in for the kiss. We kept kissing for quite some seconds and it feels really good. "It's not that I like her, I like you Andreas", he says. I stand and blush without being able to say anything for a small moment. It never got through to me that I could possibly be in love with him before. It's not acceptable here to be in love with a guy anyways. They say it's fake, that it's just in your head. However, I feel like this isn't just something in my head, it felt way too comfortable for that. "I like you too John", I answer. John starts smiling and he kisses me again really shortly. "Let's go in", he says, ending the conversation as we both walk in totally red. 

"Finally! what where you doing out there?" Kateryna shouts. John quickly answers with some excuse about that he forgot something he dropped on the way. For me, this is the most awkward situation I have ever been in. Luckily, food is there so we can eat while calming ourselves from the thing that just happened.  The food was great though and Kateryna is fixing her bed again. John quickly kisses me again, while she is too busy to look. It's getting late so bedtime will come quick. However, Kateryna is reading all the things we brought from the house. I don't know if there is anything useful in there, but I am too tired to care. I walk into the bedroom and I kiss John goodnight while he goes back into the living room, waiting for Kateryna to go to bed. Today was an awkward day. I have never had this many weird and unexpected things happening on one single day before. 

It's deep in the night and Kateryna wakes me up by laying next to me again. She whispers softly into my ears: "Why didn't you kiss me back today". I am really not sure if she should know about John & I. I decide that she shouldn't know this yet so I just answer quickly with some excuses that I have never been kissed before so it was kind of awkward to me. Luckily she believes me and goes to sleep. As soon as she sleep I feel kinda safe and I go sleep as well.