Always And Forever

part 1 -THE LETTER

OLIVER'S POINT OF VIEW

First general assembly that day after the periodical/monthly examination Aug. 25 20**. My mother and I came to school, after the general meeting parents need to proceed to the homeroom meeting. I'm grade 10 student that year @ ******* National High School. My classroom adviser announced the top 10 students and I'm shocked that I'm in 7th rank, you know why? Because I'm just a new bee in that first section class. Teachers decided to transfer me there, I don't know why. After that announcement I'm so happy that day and my mother too. Because of overwhelming feeling I posted a status on facebook saying. "oh my God!!! Shocking I can't believe it I'm in 7th rank O0O". A lot of friends congratulate me, that time someone added me to a group chat its Maica my friend in group pages. And, there this one boy talk to me in a disrespect manner, his name is CJ he told me some disrespectful words. But his friend Oliver say sorry for what CJ did. He's very kind, calm, respectful and something that I can't explain. And boom! We talk often times, chatting and somehow calling. The reason why we know that we had mutual feelings is that first quarrel of us that time I can't think well because I think he's mad at me but here comes his friend name Brix, he message me that there's bothering to Oliver, he said that Oliver can't take if we had a misunderstanding. So I talked to him in messenger, telling him everything what brix told me. He confessed to me that he likes me, and I do so. Then in a sudden we fall to each other, there's a lot of things happened between us, either enjoyment or pain. We fight for just a small things but he's the one who say sorry because he said he can't be mad to me for a long time because he loves me. September 16, 20** that's the day I said yes. That day everything changed. I know that we don't know each other for a month, but I can't blame what my heart is shouting for. We entered the same world that only the two of us can explain the feeling to have it. And I can tell that I'm so lucky to have this guy, I'm so happy, I'm so alive, I'm so hyper at the same time I'm able to do what I want because he's the one to pushed me, he cheer up me to overcome my fears. He said, "don't be afraid bro, make it a goal". He inspired me a lot he makes me feel that everything is okay, he's making me happy, gives me butterflies in my stomach, makes my cheeks burn like a fire and makes me smile every time. He's sweet, strict, loving and understanding boyfriend. He cares a lot. He is OLIVER CAYABAN the man behind all my happiness in life and also the one who gives me strength including my family. My life and time belongs to him. I know that there's no perfect relationship, but do you know what makes our relationship perfect? All the imperfections we have and all the experienced we learned. Jesus is the center of our relationship. God knows everything about us. God knows how lucky I am, he knows how much I love that man, he guide us with his grace, he makes our relationship strong. No days that we didn't talk on phone, sometimes we end up calling around 1am or 3am. Yeah that's how crazy we are to each other. I love to pissed him off 'coz I can do sweet things to him. I'm crazy for you bro and I love you very much. He's so grouchy  hahahaha and he's cute if he acts like that. He knows everything about me, he's my friend, my best friend and loving boyfriend. I do hope that he's my forever but I think ..... I don't know. Months passed November we broke up because of something, he didn't share things to me until we're okay but behind all of it, he cheated on me and 2nd break up comes it's December that time. Until January comes and that day I knew it all, that he's in relationship with someone. I'm so down that time I feel numb. But by the next month I confront him, and it's true he say sorry to me. We are okay like nothing happened, we act the same way, we're happy again sweetness came back and like that like this happened.......

Months passed by I suddenly broke up with him without any reasons, we are 9 months together and all I to say to him is I LOVE YOU BRO ALWAYS AND FOREVER PLEASE DO REMEMBER THAT ALWAYS. I'm crying that time while holding his hand. He is so confused why I am crying and telling him I love you. It's hard to me to say these words I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU that will hurt him that much. I don't want him to know why I did this. I'm sick a have a leukemia stage 2 and it's hard to pretend that I'm okay whenever I'm with him. I can feel his love, I can feel everything. I always telling him that "mahal I'm very sorry, I'm sorry let me go I can't take this anymore. I told him a lot of lies just to let me go. But he won't believe me I left him hanging. Until month passed I'm staying at the hospital, I didn't showed up to him anymore. I don't want him to worry about me I don't want to look into his eyes because he's hurt. I'm thinking that this is better, it's better that he doesn't know. Bro I'm sorry for doing this to you, I know that you're so confused right now. Bro my promise will be forever, I love you so much bro you're the best gift ever happened to my life. I want you to read this. This is my good bye letter to you and thanking you for all the things you did to me. I wrote this story of us to you to make you understand everything. This time bro I'm in final stage now bro, and I'm sorry if I can't say good bye to you personally please bro read this, goodbye bro goodbye mahal ko. Remember that I'm always at your side no matter what happen. Continue bro, look for the better girlfriend promise me that. I'm sorry again until we see each other again I LOVE YOU BYE BRO KO I'm sorry if I can't grant your wish that I won't leave you. Start your new life without me. I did this because I can't take to see you worried and in pained. I love you ALWAYS AND FOREVER.