Make You Feel My Love 2 [Camren]

Chapter 17

Lauren's POV

I go back to my room as soon as Camila'd leaves my house complaining, not saying it directly, that I've not told her about Bradley and I's kiss. Camila said that isn't the worst problem, however, I couldn't understand what she meant by that. She had left me clear that there was something more going on than just that stupid and drunk kiss, and the thought itself had been enough to take away my appetite.

I tried to call her again and again but she wasn't willing to pick up. I sent her messages and I don't even know if she has or has not read them.

"Calm down, Laur." Normani tells me at the other side of the call.

"I don't know where she's. I don't know what I did so terribly wrong. I'm concerned of what she can do out of anger."

"Lauren, Camila is fine, she'll pick up when her fit ends. You know it."

"It seemed serious. You should have seen her face when..." I choke on my own words, Camila's not an explosive person.

"Could you listen? Try to call her again tomorrow, with calm. Being so insistent is gonna fuck everything up." Making Camila will see how desperate I am and accept to talk. "If she answers now, you would definitely make unnecessary questions and she would get mad and well, you get where I'm going with this." Normani is sort of right. "You do know how much that attitude annoys Camila." It's been the cause of previous arguments.

"Yes, I do."

"Then wait, Laur. No matter what is the problem she believes you guys have, make her see that you can work it out, together." She takes a pause. "Because, trust me, you two can handle anything."

"Thanks, Mani, I love you."

"Love you too, Laur." Having such amazing friends make me completely grateful. "It's late, you should get some rest. Don't think more about it."

"Sleep tight." I lay down.

"Night."

Camila's POV

I haven't feel so angry in a while. I am really tired of advance two steps and then fall and roll five down with Lauren. I am exhausted of her jealousy and mistrust. In general, I am fed up with leaving in a constant agony, unsure of how long it will take Lauren to get bored of me this time .

"She could have just simply told me what she'd done." I express annoyed. I called Austin last minute, telling him I needed someone to listen, to help me out. He didn't think it twice before accepting my invitation, at the end we lived in the same city.

"She was probably terrified as fuck to tell you." He shrugs.

"I know for sure that between Lo and Bradley nothing could ever happen." I try to sound confident but my shaky voice betrays me.

"Well, they did kiss." Austin contradicts.

"We weren't dating and she was really confused. I'm pretty sure of that." Or at least I hope that with my heart.

"Then why didn't she tell you? I mean if it was nothing..." My gaze looks for an answer in the green grass.

"Lauren was scared. We were unstable, she didn't want to crash our relationship." I find myself defending Lauren. Why the hell am I defending her? I am mad at her! I'm supposed to say shitty things about her provoked by my anger and my friend is supposed to make me realize how stupid and immature I am being and then make me feel horrible about it! My role is to be blinded by rage! However, Austin's immersed himself in abnormal role, to eliminate even the smallest possibility of me forgiving Lauren any time soon.

"Isn't that always the problem? Lauren and her fears? Maybe she thinks there's no point in risking so much, maybe she doubts her feelings, maybe that's the real problem because if not she wouldn't be so terribly scared." Low punch.

"But.. She... I... I don't know." I lack out of replies.

"I think she hasn't figured out her feelings for you." He adds, starring into my eyes. "If I had a girl like you, honestly, I would never let her doubt, not even for a second, about how much she means to me and how much she makes me feel." Austin minimizes the space between us and softly puts his hand over mine. "I would tell her everyday how pretty her smile is, which I would do everything possible to never make it go away and instead make her the happiest person on Earth. I would take her everywhere, to the movies, to the beach. We would have nocturne dates and travel the world. I would be completely proud of introducing you as my girlfriend." My throat dries. Austin breaks his grip and goes back to his original place. "I meant, introduce her. The hypothetic girl, not you, her." He tries to rectify quickly. "I don't know why I said you, shit, I'm sorry."

"I should go." I think out loud. I can't let myself make this mistake, specially right now.

"I can give you a lift." He proposes, standing up.

"No, really, I can take the bus." I answer, it ain't a good idea as well.

"This late? Are you serious? No, there's no way. Come on, I'll take you home." His words make me so uncomfortable but he's a point, the bus can be too insecure. I sigh quietly.

"You're not gonna take no for an answer, are you?" He shrugs with a grin on his lips.

Lauren's POV

Normani is absolutely right, I have to give Camila space. According to her my attitude is beyond irrational in those aspects and irritates her to the bone. I know that if I want to convince my girlfriend that there isn't an insolvable problem for us, I must to prof her I've  changed. I don't doubting that I want to be with her. In fact, I have never actually doubted it, you cannot fool yourself. Not being able to love Camila is something I don't want to experience again, it's awful.

Who am I kidding? I am not like that.

I won't spend another night knowing that we aren't fine. I have had enough, losing more days isn't an option. I cannot just give up once again against the stupid sensation of anguish which takes over me every time I feel her getting away from me. That I am losing her. That Camila isn't mine.

What the fuck?

I do not know if Camila is or isn't mine. I don't know if she still wants to be with me, and that is exactly what I want clear out. I want to talk with her before either of us take a decision.

"Okay." I think. "Maybe she's not fully mine, it can happens." I admit. "But I gotta show her that I'm completely hers." I swear to myself, before grabbing my car keys.

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