Snuff

Chapter 4

Weeks pass since I last seen Ashley. He hasn't texted or called, and I haven't done the same. I've been mainly focusing on school. Making sure I get my college degree for music. I'm such a virtuoso. I love music. I love listening to the notes of each instrument and I listen to the key it's always in. I love hearing the strumming of the guitar in an acoustic track, the way it makes that little scratching sound when the pick glides on the neck to get to the next cord. It's a mesmerizing feeling to me.
Taking a shower, I washed my hair and shaved, and stood in the shower soaking up all the hot water letting it burn my shoulders as it hit against my back. I kept asking myself:
Do I really like him? Do I like who he is? The compassion he shows? The way he walks, it's always with confidence. He never shows his true emotion when he walks. He never looks at the ground. His head is always up and he's always smiling and saying hi to people. Do I like the way he's always smiling? And how you know he's in his sexual mood when he's got this smirk on his face whenever he talks. And it's always so slick.
I was so lost in my thoughts and left myself unanswered, as I slipped and busted my head on the shower wall. "OW! SON OF A BITCH!" I cried out. Quickly, I turned off the shower and just seen my blood coat the floor and I sighed and quickly got dressed and called Claudia. "I need to go to ER my head is gushing blood." And I got in my car and sped off. See what he does to me? I groan to myself. No. No you don't like him. He's a friend. A very.. Very close friend.. A hot friend.. MILA SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I arrived at the hospital and walked up the receptionist and sighed. "I need medical attention like now.. I fell and busted my head open and blood is coming out. A lot of blood.." I said and she calls the nurse over and I started to feel uneasy. I'm on the verge of passing out. I'm losing so much blood but for hitting my head on the shower wall? That's pathetic.
The nurse takes me to the room and the doctor ends up stitching my head shut. Great. Now there's a bald spot. "Ms. Simms, you need to rest for a bit. Take time off work and school. When you go outside wear sunglasses. You have a minor concussion dear." And he wrote me a prescription and a doctors note and sent me on my way.
I got home around 7pm and I was going to open my apartment door when I overheard Claudia talking (I knew because of loud excessive laughing) and a male voice. I opened the door and screamed covering my eyes. "EW WHAT THE FUCK!!" I groaned and Claudia laughs. "Sorry Mila, uh.. This is Tyler. I met him at the club." She laughed nervously throwing her clothes back on. "Gross. Did you not get my voicemail?" I asked. She sighed. "You were fine." I just shake my head and walked upstairs. I'm so annoyed at Claudia. How could she just assume I was fine? I didn't sound panicked enough on the phone? I threw my bag down and laid in bed and called my school and then my job and sent a photo to both of them of my doctor note.
I laid in my bed and stared at the ceiling listening to music at a low volume.
Tyler seems familiar.. Very familiar. Where do I know him from?
*FLASHBACK TO 2 YEARs AGO*
"Mila can you pass me the blunt?"Dylan asked? I nodded and kissed his cheek and handed it to him. Looking over I see Claudia making out with Dylan's best friend. I laugh a bit. "Shouldn't we separate them? Doesn't he have a girlfriend?"I smiled and played with his car keys. "Nah, Tyler and Jane split a few days ago. They're fine." Dylan laughs and passes the blunt down. I sighed watching Tyler squeeze her ass and I quickly look away.
A couple of weeks later I get a call from Claudia to come see her and as her best friend I dropped everything to go see her. She opened the door and pulled me into her bathroom and I noticed her cheeks puffy and she had a black eye. Tears everywhere. She was a mess. "Claudia oh my god! What happened???"I asked and immediately grabbed a washcloth and soaked it in warm water and started to dab her black eye. She could barely keep her sentence together as she cried to me holding my shoulders and pulling me into a tight hug. "I-I-I found out yesterday-y-y that, that I'm-m Pre-egnant. A-and Tyler was the l-last person I slept with. I-I called him and told I'm I needed to talk to him." She said and started to calm down. "So he.. He came over and I tried to be reasonable.. I said I didn't know what to do and he lost his mind and got all angry at me and hit me and punched my stomach.. Mila he threatened to kill me if I didn't get an abortion!!" She cried hard and I hugged her tightly rubbing her back and shushing her. "It'll be alright.. It'll be alright.."I said and took a deep breath. "Whatever you choose, ill be right here. I'll even move in with you. We can take care of the baby and Tyler can never know. Or you can get an abortion and we can forget this ever happened.." I told her and she nodded. "I need to think about it.."she sniffled and I finished tending her wounds.
Claudia had decided to keep the baby, only to miscarry a few weeks later. So in a way Tyler got what he wanted, but it tore Claudia apart. Her and I made a promise to forget about Tyler and even though he was Dylan's best friend, Dylan agreed to associate with Tyler and us separately. Claudia had dragged herself up from that hell. She managed to forget that happened and she focused on herself. We both did.
*END FLASHBACK*
Why is she back with him?? Quickly I got up and went downstairs and they were both dressed and he had just walked out the door. "See you tomorrow.."Claudia said and bit her lip closing the door. She turned and leaned against the door looking down smiling and I cleared my throat and she just smiled looking at me. I stared at her. My face was bright red. "Are you serious? What the fuck is wrong with you!!"I yelled and quickly held my head sitting down. "What? Tyler? We're back together so what."she shrugged and grabbed the bag of chips off of the coffee table and headed for the kitchen. I got up and followed her. "I see that.. And with the same Tyler that got you pregnant, beat you and threatened you to get an abortion? The same Tyler that was the reason you miscarried? And who broke you into a million pieces??"I spat and she turned and looked at me. "He never meant to do that."
I rolled my eyes. "Yeah my mom said the same thing about my father before he continued to fuck whores and snort cocaine. Tyler is still the same." I said. She clenched her jaw. "It was the drugs that controlled his head.. He couldn't bare spending money on a baby and have to give up his addiction to oxy codons." She said and put the chips into the cabinet. "You don't blame your addiction on your mistakes and bad behavior Claudia!!" I screamed and she looked at me. "IT WAS TWO FUCKING YEARS AGO MILA HE ISN'T LIKE THAT ANYMORE!!"
I couldn't listen to this anymore. I went upstairs and grabbed my suitcase and loaded it with my clothes, make up, and other necessities. I walked downstairs and she stood in front of the door. "You're seriously leaving??"She asked and I could hear the annoyance in her voice. "Yeah! I am fucking leaving. I don't want to be there when you fuck up again. When he puts his hands on you again. And the fact that I needed you today and you decided to fuck an asshole instead of being their for your best friend.. You're a fucking asshole. You two deserve each-other. Move out of my way."I growled and she sighed. "I thought.. Since you hit your head.. That you wouldn't remember him.."She said softly. I just looked at her and shook my head. "And if I went into a coma?"I laughed and shook my head a little. "What am I saying. You would of been glad if that happened."I pushed her out of my way and went to my car and opened my trunk throwing my bag into it and gave her finger before getting into my car and I sped off.
I pulled over at a gas station and pulled out my phone tearing up and I wiped my eyes and dialed Ashley's number and couldn't keep myself from crying. It went to voicemail. I sniffled and left a voicemail. "H-hey it's me.. Mila.. I got into a fight with Claudia and I left.. I need.. I need someone right now.. P-please get back to me as soon as you get this.." I hung up and sniffled crying softly and a few moments later my phone buzzed with a text. "I'm here.." And he sent me his address and I put into my GPS and followed it to his apartment and I turned off my car and wiped my eyes and grabbed my suitcase and walked to his door knocking and he answered only in a towel. "I'm so sorry I was in the shower.." He grabbed my suitcase and set it by the couch and I walked in and held my head and he saw the little bald spot on my head. "Did she rip your hair out?? What happened??" He asked and pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him closing my eyes. "I fell in the shower.. I'm alright just a slight concussion.."I sighed and breathed in the smell of axe body wash and his grip around me tightened. "Well you're welcome here.. You'll always be."He said and ran his hand up my shirt rubbing his thumb up and down my spine. "I bet your tired. Let me make my bed for you." He insisted and I sighed. "Ash the couch is alright for me."I said and he gave me this look. "You're funny if you think you're sleeping on the couch. You need something comfortable. Besides I just got a new bed. You'll love it."He chuckles and I sighed following him to his room and he made his bed and then he went into his bathroom and changed out of his towel into pajamas. And I just realized I could of removed his towel. Mila shut the fuck up. I sighed and rubbed my head and climbed under the covers. Damn his bed is really comfortable. Ashley walked back in and brushed his hair and I looked at his figure and the way he would wince at the knots in his hair as he combed it through. He rubbed aftershave cream onto his face and then he climbed into bed and he smiled rubbing my hand and I turn over slowly and I looked at him and he moved a little closer. "Are you sure you're alright?.."he asked. "Y-yeah I think I'll be alright."I smiled a little and I could see through the night he wasn't smiling. He really wanted to make sure that I was alright. "The doctor said that I need to take a few weeks off from school and work.. And that I should spend them resting. I have to wear sunglasses when I go outside and I can't have the lights on during the day. Other than that I'm fine." I said. "Alright.. Do you need any medication?" He asked and moved his hand from my hand onto my waist and I just wanted to kiss him. He was right there. I could figure out where his lips were in the pitch black. And his eyes looked hollow. So did his nostrils. "No.. I don't think so.. But you're enough medication for me." WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY?? Wow Mila. Not only was that a shitty pun it was not the right time. You're a fucking dumbass. Quickly I just turned over. "So uhm.. Goodnight."I quickly said and closed my eyes. He let go of my waist and he turned his back to me and I just sighed to myself. I just fucked it up.