The wrong side of Heaven & The righteous side of Hell Volume: 1

Chapter Ten: Can't Heal You

AN: Sorry this is just a little filler chapter that I wanted to write because I'm planning to go see Adam Gontier's (old singer from Three days Grace) new band Saint Asonia for the second time (I saw them back in October with Seether, and now I'm gonna see them on August 13th), and Disturbed which is who their touring with. Well since I live in a small town in Texas, I have to drive 4 hours in order to go see them in Houston Texas so I've been stressing so much, and dealing with horrible panic attacks worrying about this trip. Which caused me to write this little piece to help deal with all the stress I'm having to deal with, and I didn't want you guys thinking I forgot about you guys since I haven't updated like I have been. Anyways I hope you enjoy this and I'll write and update again soon.  

Ivan's POV:

I can't really sleep anymore because of everything that happened with Ash and Amber, god I still feel so bad for hurting Ash. I sit up and slide out of bed, and decide to put on a movie to watch to help distract me because being alone with the thoughts in my head is not the greatest idea right now. I put in the movie Scream, and sit back in bed and rub my face, and think of what I should do about this whole situation.

I"m in the middle of the movie and thinking when I hear Ash start yelling from her bedroom, I quickly shoot up out of my bed, and run towards her room. I hear Jason or Jeremy running up the stairs, as I quickly pull open her door and see Ash violently shaking in her bed. I hear someone behind me so I yell for them to turn the light on while I go move the blanket away from Ash. The closer I am to her I see that she's having a really bad nightmare, I shake her a little, and yell for her to please wake up, and after awhile of that her eyes shoot open and she sits up gasping for air. She looks around at me and at my mom, and Jason and she still seems to not be able to catch her breath so I put my hand on her shoulder and ask "are you OK sweetie?" She starts crying hard and shakes her head "I-I can't breathe daddy." She continues to cry and hyperventilate as she rocks back and forth, I look at my mom "what do I do? Should we take her to the hospital?" She shakes her head "she's probably just having a panic attack from the bad dream, your sister use to have panic attacks you either need to help her calm down or let her ride it out, and she should fall asleep after."

I nod and bring Ash onto my lap as I sit up against the headboard of her bed "you need to calm down sweetie, everything's OK, you're safe here with me, grandma, and Jason OK?" She continues to cry but nods "OK now breath with me OK?" She nods really fast again and I hold her hands as I slowly breath in and out, I coach her through her breathing and eventually her breathing is back to normal. I sigh in relief and hug her "you OK?" I look down at her and she nods and continues to breathe calmly, I look at my mom and she smiles. "You guys can go back to bed, I'll stay up with her but thanks for helping me" Jason and my mom both give me smiles as they leave and close the door. I close my eyes and thank god that I was able to help Ash, and when I look back down she was knocked out. I decide to sleep with her just in case anything else happens so I quickly and carefully get up to go turn the stuff off in my room, and run back to her room before she can wake up and freak out again. I turn the lights off and lay down with her head on my chest and hug her hoping that she sleeps OK and that she'll be OK in the morning.