Revenge meets Love

My revelation

"Euhm Jameson, there is something I need to tell you..."

"Yes" He says nervous but also curious.

"Euhm, I have actually no idea of how to tell this to you" I begin quietly. I am talking less loud than normally but he can still understand me.

"You don't want to break up, do you?" He asks shocked.

"No I don't want that at all but I'm afraid that will be the only option you'll see after I told you something." I respond.

"Okay" he says "I think I'm ready for whatever you're going to say."

"Before I say everything, you have to know that I love you no matter what and that won't change!" He just nods in response. While I can't hold back my tears I start telling him about my mother and that she had forbidden me to participate so when he started talking a plan had unravelled in my head. That plan required sadly enough using him but then I started to get real feelings and I wanted to..

"Stop!" He says trying to hold back his tears. "Don't give me that crap! You used me and now you're going to ask me to give you a chance?!"

"I'm not asking anything" I respond " I get that you're angry and.."

"Angry is not the only feeling!" He snaps. He had never snapped like that before and I get tears in my eyes again and so does he, it looks like he wants to apologize but then he runs out of the riding school and I hear him drive away, leaving me behind with my dream horse but without my dream prince.

I don't know what to do. Should I go after him or should I let him overthink everything a bit? I am struggling between the choices so luckily Jumper whines to get my attention and pushes me towards the horse riding trousers, which I think of as a sign so I get blue horse riding trousers, a satchel and a blue under blanket with a matching blue bridle and some brushes and combs. I start saddling him up and I do his bridle on and go to ask if I can enter the riding arena. A friendly women comes out of the arena on her horse and says while smiling: "It's free now, but do you have a certificate to ride alone?" As answer I show her my certificate, well actually the one I have on my phone. She says: "Okay, it's just a precaution, I think you'll understand that."

"Oh I do, in fact I would do the same thing! By the way I'm Kathrin." I respond while offering my hand. We shake hands and she says her name is Aria, which is a beautiful name, and she asks if I still need help but I thank her and goes in the riding arena with Jumper, who walks very proud next to me. I step on and I start with step and then trot and then I do a few figures. I have forgotten how nice it is with Jumper. Then after half an hour riding I go in scamper and I forget everything and everybody, my mother, Jameson, the riding school, the lies everything is left behind and before I know it an hour has passed! I make Jumper clean and do his horseshoes and make him dry with straw. I see that his box has already been cleaned so I am glad that I don't have to do that anymore. Then I say goodbye to Aria and while I go back to my way to big house, that lays surprisingly close to the riding school, everything comes back. I run upstairs to my room and close my door, plug in my earphones and play my sad song list. It's not a list that makes me sad but a list that makes me happy again when I'm sad. The tears flow over my cheeks for at least 5 hours and I guess that I fell asleep then.

When I wake up the next morning around 8 o'clock I have been woken by the warning of my IPod because the battery is almost dead and that makes an enormous sound, I can assure you! I wake up like a zombie and it is like I've been up all night and my eyes feel dry. I go downstairs and hear my mother's car drive away so I look on the table and as expected a note is laying there in the perfect handwriting of my mother.