Moving from junior school to senior school is a MASSIVE deal. Especially for a fat girl. It opens you to a completely different world of more independence and less control over who you are. In a bigger school you are supposed to mature but this doesn't seem to be the case.... I chose Crookhorn College because of the great relationships between Students and teachers. I wanted to find a teacher who understood me and could advise me with suitable advice that I could apply to my life and actually use.
Being a fat girl with no friends in secondary school was like being thrown into a pool ( I cant swim and have a fear of water)... In other words my worst nightmare. From the first day of year 7 I would try and ignore all the looks and laughs from the skinny older blonde girls who I could tell would quickly beat out any form of confidence I had in myself. But I would lie to my tutor about how I was in our weekly meetings before school, I would tell him everything was okay because somehow I couldn't find the words to explain the pain I was feeling and how to make it sound as if I needed help.... I wanted help, but I couldn't ask for it. Number one tip in secondary school was not to cry, crying Is a sign of weakness... from living with abusive alcoholics I learnt how to hold in tears and retain my anger. However, crying was not my weakness.....food was. Food was an ecscape for me because I know food wouldn't hurt me, lie to me or cheat on me. It couldn't hurt me......could it....
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The Skinny Fat Girl
Literatura Feminina"Its better to be skinny than to be fat" The words that controlled the last 17 years of my life.
