[✔] The Colour of Tainted Love || Junhoe

Chapter 3 - KJH

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Noisy. The sound of the clock was noisy and annoying but instead of standing up and throwing it out of the window I sat still. Everything in front of me was blurry. Why? Did I drink too much? No... This was only my 3rd glass.
I looked down at the table in front of me. Even if it was black I could see my reflection in it. My hair was messy and I didn't shave for a week. Why should I? I'm not going outside anyways. I quit my job. The only thing I did was... well... nothing. But I wanted to do even less than that. It was impossible though.
My eyes wandered to the phone next to me. The last picture I had left of her was shown on the display. She was smiling into the camera. Oh, how I loved her beautiful smile and the way her cute dimples would show up whenever she laughed about my stupid jokes. I really missed those times when we were carefree and happy. The times we could just sit next to each other without worries, watching the sunset and talk about our unrealistic future plans.

We wanted to get married, have a big house on the countryside and a lot of kids. She wanted to be a stay-at-home mom and have at least 5 children.
I let a weak laugh escape my lips at that thought. It was so like her. She had such a caring and loving nature. I could really imagine her wearing a knee-length blue dress with white daisy's on it and having three or four kids playing around her, while she was holding the youngest one in her arms.
Then I would come home and she'd give me a beautiful smile welcoming me home after a long day of work.
Yeah... It would have been incredible to live a life like that together.

But it was impossible.

I looked outside the window putting a cigarette in my mouth. I actually had stopped smoking after she said she didn't like it. Now she wasn't here anymore. There was no reason for me to hold back anymore.
I stood up and went towards the panorama windows in front of me.

Too bright.

A button was pressed and the black curtains covered the bright and beautiful light coming in.

Darkness. I didn't mind it though. I didn't mind it at all.
With dragging steps my body made its way to the couch while I was lost in thoughts again.

It was full of her. My mind wouldn't allow nothing else to come in at the moment. I remembered everything. All the beautiful memories turned into sad ones.

They were once full of colour. Full of bright and pleasant colours. Yeah, once they were like that but not anymore.

They had all been tarnished by the colour of tainted love.