Luke
Let it go (James bay)
I was in the bathroom looking in the mirror it has been a few days with the thoughts these very terrible thoughts about getting rid of the baby or giving it up for adoption. Crying myself to sleep every night hasn't helped me or the baby, my arms are getting skinnier. Luke hasn't said anything yet but his face says a lot he knows I'm not well but I don't know why he doesn't say anything.
"Sweetheart time for dinner" I wash my face and head downstairs and I see Luke at the table I look surprised and I sit down "I didn't know you were here" he grabs some food and nods "I just got here"
I nod and continue eating with the thoughts still in my mind.
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After dinner we head to my room and I decided to tell Luke since the awkward silence was hitting real hard. "I don't want the baby"
ok that could have come out better.
"What?" He stopped whatever he was doing and looked at me "I don't want this baby I'm not old enough to have one or be a mother" he scoffed "You can't just say stuff like that out of the blue!" Okay why you yelling tho.
"It's not out of the blue Luke! I've been thinking about this for days!" I sighed and started crying "I don't know what's wrong the looks the whispers everything is just going down" I start to cry more like ugly sob, he sighed again.
"Look babe how about we go to therapy?" He sat next to me taking my hands in his "Jack took some sessions and it helped him a lot" he smiled. I smiled back "You think it'll work?" I asked wiping the tears away "Of course I mean we aren't the only ones struggling, parents in their 30s have problems too. This is just a bump in the road we'll get through it" I smiled again "What would I do without you" he chuckled
"Crash and burn"
Calum
Three weeks four days and eight hours. That is how long I have been thinking of giving up our little alien. I know this is not what we had in mind but it's been kind of hard my parents and Calum's have been non stop fighting about the future. Where are we going to live, are we going to get jobs, is Calum going to quit soccer, it's just a mad house.
I know Calum is stressed too but I'm the one pregnant shouldn't I be the one deciding with Calum. Don't get me wrong I love the my family but this is just getting out of hand. "Hey honey come down your father and I have something to talk about with you" I made my way downstairs and I saw Calum's parents there "oh hey guys I didn't know you were coming where's Calum?"
"He's still at practice we actually wanted to talk to you guys about something" I nodded and sat down, swollen feet. "We were thinking if having two baby showers"
YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!
"Uhm why would we do that" I asked, Calum's mom looked uncomfortable "Well why not? We just don't feel comfortable having it here" she gave a fake smile. I was about to say something before my dad spoke up "Who says we have to have it here? We can just rent a place out" I felt small here comes the yelling...
"Well because first of all its a lot of money to rent out a place for just a couple of hours" Calum's dad said very firmly. "We are not having two baby showers that's just more money than a place to rent out" my mom spoke up; everything is just getting out of hand my hands are sweating my head is full of thoughts. Calum's mom scoffed and my mom didn't take it so well.
