No Judgement

A Brewing Storm

I had a hard time sleeping. Derek and Sammy left. I dont know where they are. Mom and Dad...I also don't know. How could everything go wrong in about a minute. How? After my gut cleaning *ahem* I went straight to bed. Makeup and all. And I will probably have a pimple tomorrow. If the stress doesnt attack my pores the makeup and sweat will. Who cares? Obviously me because I am ranting about it in my head instead of thinking about the real problem so again I am trying to avoid the thought of the dinner which I am utterly failing at because now here I am at the thought and now it is stuck in my rant and I just need a glass of *burp*. And that was the last thought I could get in before i puked again. This time on the floor. I wake up to Lanah in my room mopping the hardwood floors. She dosent see me awake and she goes out of the room. Once she is gone I look at my floor and it seems puke free. Go Lanah! She comes back in and sees me awake. "Sammy told?" she asks. I nod and she sighs. We always have this routine where I am nervous, scared, or worried and I do...well...this. And she comes over and cheers me up and cleans up my puke. I love her so much. Oh and Lanah is stronger that me so she lifts me up and carries me to the bathroom. She forces me to brush my teeth and take a shower. While I am sudsing up my hair with my favorite strawberry wash I smell strawberry pancakes. Did I mention that I have the best bestie ever and I love her so much. I dress in the sweats Lanah laid out for me and wrap my hair in a towel. I go downstairs and eat every single bite of my pancakes and slurp up my strawberry smoothie. If you hadnt noticed I LOVE strawberries, this Lanah knows therefore, my meal. Lanah braids my hair into two dutch braids then sits down and sips on her own smoothie. She looks at me with her chocolatey brown eyes. When she is done with her smoothie I start to speak and she holds up a finger. She proceeds to stretch preparing for the whole story. "Proceed" she says, and I tell her everything that happened.
"Wellllllllllllllllllll....." she says after I am done. That isnt part of the routine. She usually gives me a hug and we watch my favorite movie. I know I am spoiled. I turn to see what she is looking at. And there is Sandra. Her, Lanah and I used to be a trio...until she found out about Sammy a year ago and left. "Are you two still lesbian?" Sandra asked with a smirk. I knew I should've changed the code to get in the house. "Lanah said to meet her here...since she is my bestfriend I came." I look at Lanah. Part of the reason we werent friends with Sandra anymore is because she HATED us and she was always kinda mean and pushy. Like when we were little she would always tease us in a friendly but it would still feel bad. "Oh Lan didnt tell you? We have been good friends for a couple months now...she was waiting to tell you" Sandra says. I look at Lanah,or 'Lan' as Sandra said, and see complete guilt and nervousness in her brown eyes. When Lanah gets nervous she trembles a little so I also see her curls shake. Well...this should be an interesting explanation.