A Year Of Hell And Back

Live Another Day

Sadiq's P.O.V

Looking in the mirror had become a lot harder. I knew that no matter how many times I looked up i'd have to see that scar. It had crusted over now and was just a big, black line across my face. Today it was accompanied by a group of hickeys Ernesto had left from the day before.

A blush engulfed my face from my cheeks to my ears. I still can't believe we had even kissed, but sex.

It surprised me to find that ape of a man still sleeping on my bed. It really made it hard to still be mad at him. He was gripping my pillow and had drooled all over it.

I would have loved to join him but I had to go find the two bastards who just up and left when I thought I was going to die. Side note: Stab Calum when I see him.

It was about six or seven o'clock in the morning so I decided I might as well start finding out where they went. This time no one else was in the kitchen so it would be a little easier to find things in there...

Of course I had no such luck.

Once I finally gave up on that, search I decided to go for a walk. I don't know how long I was walking, but I ended up bumping into Serena near the lake. I was about to turn around and pretend like I didn't see her but I couldn't look away when I saw her smoking her life away. Why did I not know she smoked? How could I not know?

It explains why she's always such a bitch all the time. If I only got to smoke by being miles away from everyone else I'd probably be pissed off all the time too.

" Uh, Sadiq how long have you been looking at me ?"  Serena asked. How long have I been staring at her? Does this happen often or just when I'm staring at someone?

Explains why Ernesto is always looking at me like I'm an idiot and then curses me out in Spanish. " It's always something, mi amor bello something, amado ha la la la la  mi alma". Or that could be what he says when he wants to have sex with me. Probably the second one.

"SADIQ! HEEELLLLOOO!" Shit, I must've done it again. How the hell did I learn in school?

" I uh... Wha-what was the question exactly?" I stuttered. Serena just scoffed and started back up the hill towards the campsite. I soon followed behind her. I rechecked my broken watch which would only show two hours ahead of time. The small screen read 2:47(12:47).

We got back at around three and I had done nothing I was supposed to do the entire day.
W

ell except find out some information about where Cat and Calum went.

Apparently, Serena is an excellent conversationalist on top of her unknown smoking habits (that everyone but me knew about).

She said she overheard them talking about Cornwall a couple days before they left so that will probably be the first place to look. I headed strait to Ernesto and I's room and rethought the plan over in my head.

1. Pack my bag.
2. Write a note about where I'm going.
3. Get to Cornwall.
4.

I never got to four. Or to number one for that matter. I was immediately met by Ernesto's lips which tasted like heaven against mine. Then he just stopped right before I was about to moan in his mouth.

"Who am I to you?", He said seriously. That sentence definitely wasn't apart of the plan.

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Ernesto's P.O.V

He was no where in the house. Even though it hadn't been a full week since he's been out the hospital, he still left the house. "Why the fuck can't he just stay in one place?", I thought to myself. I was about to go back to bed but I was rudely interrupted by my bitch of a wife, Holly. "Why the fuck are you touching me?" I scoffed.

"Well, I was hoping you would like to know what your jackass of a sperm created. Were going to the ultrasound today."

"Isn't the hospital like an eight hour drive from here?"

"Well duh, that's why were leaving so early."

" And by we you mean?"

"Serena and Me."

"Oh, so I can't be gay but you can be a lesbian?" I said just wanting to see her face turn red.

"You know what fuck you son of a bitch I'm leaving" she said through gritted teeth. Why did I ever love her? After a couple of minutes Serena followed behind her heading out the door not even uttering a word to me and I returned the favor.

It's sad that she'll probably have a bigger impact on our child's life than I will. At least my dad didn't leave the family entirely. I wish he would have though. Then I wouldn't have the life I have now. Or would I?

Even if he wasn't their my mother wouldn't be able to take care of me by herself she was only sixteen years old when she did so why even bother with the 'what if' story. We'd still be broke, we'd still have to find odd jobs just the payments for our old shitty apartment.

My mom would still probably end up with a deadbeat husband who would have sent me to an even worse school. I would have gotten some other girl pregnant and never even met Patty nor my boyfriend. But at least I have Sadiq. That's one of the best things that I still have.

Or have now, once he finds out why I tried to kill myself than I'll probably lose him too. I tried to kill myself just because I thought it would make life easier. It's not like I had alot to lose, back then I didn't even know if Sadiq was going to make it or not. He never even told us that he was heart attacks. Which he shouldn't be having at age 17.

Well pretty much still 16. He just turned 17 in April and it's May the twenty-seventh. Speaking of which he's been out for a full month. He probably doesn't even know what month it is. "Man why can't he just listen to me for once!" I shouted out loud not really meaning to. I ran my shaking hand through my hair. Now, I just really wanted to sleep. I fell on top of my-our-bed and began to dream as soon as my head hit the pillows.