A Year Of Hell And Back

Tuesday-Calum's Betrayel

Part 2

Sadiq! Sadiq, wake up!" is what I kept hearing Cat scream over and over in my head. It was like I was trapped inside my own mind and no matter how hard I tried to break free it wouldn't let me escape. After what felt an eternity, I finally woke from my dream. Well, it was more like a nightmare.

Cat was tied up to the wall next to a shelf where Rhys' severed head lay. She kept screaming at me. I had no idea why though. That's when I looked down even though I wish I'd hadn't.

Calum's dead body was laying on a table beheaded and limbless. My hands again were stained in fresh blood that leaked unto the floor. It was one of the most grotesque images I've ever seen. I could feel the bile rising up my throat. I had to get out of there as quickly as possible. So, I did what I do best in situations like these...Run.

I kept running but staying in the same place I was. My breath hitched and I couldn't breath. I felt like my ribcage was encasing my lungs and cutring off my air supply. The room started to go black and no matter how hard I tried to hold on to reality it kept pulling me back in. Darkness. All I saw was darkness.

Finally I  was woken up by Cat's sweet voice. Her face covered in what looked like tears. She made me feel safe. Like everything was going to be okay, like a mother would. Or at least that's what I thought. The pain hit me like a frieght train.It hurt to even open my eyes now. Never mind speaking. And on top of that I had an utterly horrid headache.

"Its going to be okay Sadiq, I promise it will" Cat said more to her than to me. I could tell she didnt mean that though. I was still laying in the the field covered in prickly tarnished grass. Then I was hoisted up by a very familiar body. It was nun other than Ernesto.

His chest felt warm and his breath was hot against my face. Usually I would've pushed him away but this time I excepted it. It was fucking freezing outside for pete's sake. The thought of Ernesto and Me being together sent shivers down my spine still. So I started to squirm a little in his arms. This seemed to amuse him as he let out a slight chuckle.

"Ern, I th-th-ink you can put m-me down now. I- I'm f...". Before I could finish my sentence he put two fingers on my lips. I didn't even realize that I was shivering my feet felt numb and my body was coursing with pain.

I saw tears appear on his face. He was crying because of me. This made me even more scared. I must've looked even worse than felt. "What's wrong with me Ernesto?"I said in a voice that was barely over a whisper.

"Nothing...just, just don't speak okay? It hurts to much to hear your voice to much.
" Ern just t-tell me what's go-oing on."
"Sssssh, Sadiq. It's to late to change anything now. Just go to sleep and we'll figure this out tomorrow."

We walked the rest of the way home in  silence. I kept staring at him but he refused to meer my gaze. I snuggled into him and let a tear slip down my face. Then I blacked out.
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I woke up from my slumber, and this time I was just plain agitated. I went to check myself in the mirror. A massive scar appeared across the entire left side of his face. It went all the way down to his lower neck.

Only thing I wanted to do was cry but I knew I couldn't. Not now not after everything that's happened. Not after all that was happening. I'm the leader of this tribe and I have to protect them not matter what.

A shadow slowly appeared towering over me. I think you can tell who it was. Ernesto could tell that I wasn't happy right now.
"Hey, look on the brightside Sadiq."

"What 'brightside' Ern? My face is fucked up, Cat still doesn't like me and no matter how much I want my mom I can't even have her because of somebody making some fucked up machine. I can never see her again, Ern." Tears rolled down my cheeks even when I stuggled to hide them. It burned against my new scar which only made me cry even more.

"The brightside, Sadiq is that I'm still here for you." Ern said as he wrapped his arms around my waist. He held me tight as if he was going to lose me at any second and staired down at me with his piercing green eyes. I knew it was wrong but I just couldn't let go of him.

I finally felt stable for once in my life. He and I stood there as I cried into his chest. I told him about everything and he listened to me everytime. At that moment I realized that i did have feelings for Ernesto. But I would never tell him that.

I'm not like that am I? Could I be? Maybe I was. Ernesto and I looked into each others eyes and he kissed my forehead. I actually liked it. Who knew a little lighting could change my young life forever?