change is ____

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the pieces of my memory
are coming together
not to create sense,
but to piece by piece
build this guilt that has begun
to swallow me whole
although i believed
i could only bend
but never be broken.

as i gather the recollections
of the past i've destroyed
and the human beings i've changed
i've come to find
nobody has changed
quite as much as myself.

my eyes speak a different language
a different story of sadness
a different kind of loss & insecurity
my body has changed into
a new type of war-torn battlefield
my heart has changed into a battle
a battle between
myself & everyone else

and in the aura of tonight
i realized
who i've become
is a recollection of who i've lost

❥  ❥  ❥ 

i'm kinda tripping and having an emotional upset as i'm writing this

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