Finding Myself (#2)

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Najah

Najahmaree_  I ain fazed by the hate I'm 5'3 and yall still look up to me. I ain fina sit around and cry off the people who did me wrong. I'm just not fina be in nobody's presence so they can constantly disrespect me. Them 600 boys shady asf and durk they just fake as hell.. When you can't trust your brothers that's just fucked up. You gotta watch your back from the motherfuckers Who claim 'They got your back'  I'm Starting To Just Not Trust Are listen to anything anybody Tell me cause everybody be lying Leonard Anderson Jr my #1 priority and I ain gotta worry bout him betraying me. By the way yall all ugly as shit to and yall stupid dumb ass Lil boys. And guess who shorty is getting they ass beat!!!@ludfoe_boochiegang this guy's! !!

I got off instagram as all the boys started to comment. To say my feeling wasn't hurt was a huge lie. I just can't myself kicking it with them. That 060 shit just not up no more.

I miss L'a badly every time somebody play his music I just feel some type of way.

I walked in my bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked crazy I think a cold was coming on soon.

I walked in my Closet and pulled out all of l'a stuff as tears streamed down my face. This was my worst pain and memory ever.

Tears were coming down crazy.. I grabbed one of his shirts smelling it. I hit the floor hard with my fist. "Wh-why th-is hurt so ba-bad" I cried palming my face.

Why you leave me? I thought as I cried

I hate him, no i don't what am i saying.

What is life man this pain hurts so bad like my heart is pounding and it hurts so bad.

I went downstairs and snatched a vodka bottle. I instally took it to the head.

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I slowly opened my eyes I looked around and frowned. "Why is yall here?" I grumbled

My head was pounding. "Najah that the fuck is wrong with you" rondo snapped

"Move I gotta go get leo" I said sitting up.

"Foe already got him they downstairs" dthang said I looked up seeing my mirror was shattered and my hands was bloody and swollen. I sighed, I stood up and start putting l'a stuff back in the box..

"Maree fr whats wrong with you?" Jb asked I ignored them.

"Fine come on out bro" rondo said drose walked out my closet.  I wanted to smile and jump up and down but I couldn't I didn't have enough strength. I just continue to pick his stuff up...

"What's wrong najah? " he asked

"None I'm cool" said wiping my eyes putting his stuff in my closet.

I washed my hands, "I'm cool yall can leave i told yall we wasn't Cool no more" I said looking at the boys.

"We is sorry najah damn" breezy said

"No yall not cause yall did the shit more then once yall just all fake as fuck" I rolled my eyes

"We sorry fr najah" dthang said

"You didn't even do anything" I told him

"I apologize" durk said

"I just don't see how yall would do some to me knowing I wouldn't do that to you. Like I said it's cool. Yall hurt my feelings and it's sad i ain fina cry bout it cause that's gay" I shrugged

"Can you please forgive us" breezy laid on my bed

"Can yall forgive tay?" I asked

....silence

"That what I-"

"Yeah we can" durk said

"Okay yeah I forgive yall now get out" I said

They left, "LEO" I yelled. I heard footsteps Instead of leo will walked in.

"Why u here?" I rolled my eyes

He laid on my bed, "baby come back..you can blame it all on mee" he sung making a smile creep on my mouth.

"I'm sorry najah I ain cheat on you tho" he said

"I ain go over her house. I ain gone lie I was gone go but I felt guilty so I didn't" he said

"If we gone be in a relationship it's all or nothing" I said blankly

"Oka you fucking wit da kid again?"  He smirked

"Go to sleep" I laid down

"Leo sleep? " I asked, "yeah" he laid in front of me.

"Najah" he said I closed my eyes, "hmm?"

"My red hat stupid fr?" He asked

"Go to sleep" I shook my head

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This chapter was terrible like i think i didn't write this chapter good enough feel like i rushed through it