Leo
"Ma" I shook her, she was in the bed with the covers on her. She been crying since we got home. Not even showing ya boy some love.
"Leave me alone L'a"
I Know some was wrong cause she called me L'a.
I walked out her room to go call somebody I know would help me in this.
Lemme call mallymal...
"Wassup Lil man?" He answered
"I need some help" I said he laughed, "with what? " he asked
"My g, she won't stop crying and get out the bed not showing me no love like I'm a L or some" I Turned the game on
"What you should do is get a bucket of water and dump it on her ass then she will give you all the love u need fam" he said
"iight, Ima text you if it work" I said hanging up
I went in my bathroom closet grabbing a bucket and throwing it in the tub. I turned the tub on letting it feel up.
"I'm cold" I said standing on the stepstool looking in the mirror.
I jumped down, ya boy got hops. I turned the tub off and grabbed the bucket of water. And carried it to her room. When I was walking down the hallway I spilled some making me slip and fall and hit my chin first.
"WHAT WAS THAT" mommy yelled
Najah
"WHAT WAS THAT!" I yelled popping up, I sucked my teeth and got up looking in the hallway Leo was on the ground with tears streaming Down his face.
"What were you doing boy" I picked him up I took him in my room and sat him on my bathroom sink. I looked in his mouth he was bleeding and his bottom row tooth was loose.
I sighed, "Leo what was you trying to do?" I asked
"I was going to throw water on you to make you stop crying" he said I tilted my head
"What? How was that gone make- nvm" I sighed
I guess it was My fault I haven't been showing him no attention since we got back from Chicago. I been to hung up on this gotti thing cause this shit hurt.
"Come on let's go cook" I put him down grabbing his hand...
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"Leo I hope you grow up to be a great man" I said as we ate the whole thing got me thinking. I know he gone have to go through fake friends, hopefully no heartbreak cause I will beat them Lil girls ass. But I just hope he knows how to be a bigger person. Like I know he is going to make mistake I just want him to better himself from them.
"I am I'm going to be like daddy" he said eating his pancakes
I shook my head, "no I want you to be better then him" I said
Ion want him to be like L'a I know L'a don't want him to be like him. Believe it or not L'a wasn't the greatest person well in my eyes he was. But that's not what you would want your son to do grow up following his footsteps I love L'a more then myself but you see where his life got him.
Leo needs to be better then him cause L'a wasn't perfect. He can have hid traits though to make him a great man. He can be humble, talented, smart, funny like his dad. But you can't have another L'a and Leo can't be like his father. He can be the side that nobody saw of L'a but he showed. Me how loving, and protective he was L'a had a good heart and I know Leo will have one to.
Me and L'a with a child it's kinda funny. We both had huge anger problems and sometimes we didn't know how to handle anything but to go to violence. I need to stop fighting and be the bigger person and start walking away I have a child I need to think about before anybody at the end of the day.
Only reason why I've been crying is cause I let somebody cross me. Can't nobody ever speak to me bout loyalty cause when I was broke I was making sure motherfuckers Were straight. And that hurt you were supposed to be my friend.
Just makes me think who can you trust? Makes you question anything somebody says to you and everyone you meet.
After L'a death it's no lie things went down hill for team 600. Things just start falling apart nobody is the same. L'a played a big part in everybody life and him just being gone the next day how are you supposed to get over that? How are you supposed to take the next step? Team 600 is now like an dysfunctional family. I can't help but love all of them though I love the gang that's some shit that's in me. I can't just leave it behind believe it or not everybody in 600 is family.
If anything trust comes before love and if I can't trust you how can I love you? I think about all the good thing that happened, and just wonder what the fuck happened. We were just at the top now we're falling. We got all these solders that's dying. And dying for what?
Chicago ain for nobody that shit will break you but you can't up and leave it. Cause you got a family there a family that went through hell with you holding your hand.
A family that was always there for you. We all been through hell and back with and for each other.
Which is why if you look at shit back then to shit now. It's unbelievable we were all for each other if you even looked at one of us the wrong way the whole squad was on you but now it's just different.
I know everybody is hurting Deep down. You just can't move on from that shit. You won't necessarily be traumatized but it will haunt you.
Shit is just so unreal..
It's like when L'a died he took a big piece of everybody. Loyalty is question. Hearts are broken, all the bickering all the yelling all the tears. All the pain, all the calls for help. All the years in jail shit just really makes you think..how did you get like this? Some of us is literally damaged inside and some of us just keeps it moving cause its a cycle ain nothing worse then losing somebody..
Shit is just sad
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Q&A
Ima do it next chapters
Question for..
Rondo? ?
Gotti??
Jb??
Breezy??
Drose??
Edai??
Cdai??
Najah??
Leo??
The pinks??
Ludfoe??
Momma capone and her daughters?
Durk??
Any 300 boys?
Lolo& zayden& bella?
Ask anything yall don't get an update until then. If yall don't have any questions then I will make some up...
