In one dark and freezing night, I stayed awake because my memories and pain were consuming me, so I had no option but to sneak my computer in my room and go on facebook. I wanted to reduce the pain so I wrote a status saying that I'm sorry to the people that I have cared yet failed.The secret in that message is that I wanted a special girl to see it, hoping she sould forgive me, but I doubt it, no one would ever forgive a worthless soul right?
After I wrote that message, a mysterious girl suddenly added me as a friend and texted me asking me a weird question, then left (after giving me her phone number) to text her later. I ponder about who was the girl, and how come she looks a lot like one of my best friend. After she logged off, I texted her but no reply. I waited and waited, still no reply. I gave up, only to get a message from an old friend. We had one of the best talk that I could ever ask for! she incouraged me to live life more lively. But sadly, the great times had to come to an end.
For everytime I go to school, people would just start insulting me and beat me up, and every day after school, I just say "One more time", to keep my spirits up for the next days to come. The only reason I keep up my spirits, is because that is the only thing that keeps me alive. Nothing else matters to me anymore, my heart and soul was given away to heartless people, so the only thing I have left is my spirit to live off of. When people started to care for my "problems" I just shove them away, cause no one can cure this pain from me. After a week or so, I keep on hearing rumors in school that I was a psycopath.
They seem to be correct.........I'am a psycopath with feelings of pain and betrayel.
