Things could not go worse than it is now, I think I'm reduce to nothing but rumble, worse than dirt. It's a life of depression, always getting hated, always get made fun of while they don't know your true pain, they just want you to suffer for their amusement.
You can never trust anyone really, cause they will end up backstabbing you, well at least that's what people did to me, they took adavntage of me and treat me like a tool. I want to fight back but dont have the voice or courage to do, I just say "one more time," to myself and just move on, pretending I don't know that they are using me. You hear stuff saying "you should move on with life", or "You can make it through the tough times." but I don't belive any of that crap people say cause they end up forgetting it themselves and go to someone and be just like me, a broken lost child of this world.
Really to everyone else, I'm nothing to them, they only act nice to me so that they will use me til I break down, then fix me up again and do the whole process, much like a rewind up toy soldier, All they do is play with me til I'm broken, then fix me up to redo it. But I'm tired of everything, all the lies, all the pain, the betrayels, the fake niceness.............life itself is getting tiring, I just want to sleep and wake up when I'm out of Earth, but I can't, I gotta be here for my friends who need comfort, or people I trust........
