Hiding the Secrets

eleven

☾HIDING THE SECRETS☽
PERRIE

It was already past midnight, and I couldn't sleep since Zayn was in my house. I just had a feeling that once I fall asleep, that's when hell brakes loose.

As I returned to my bedroom, I took out my book. My special book. A book where I write everything, everything that means so much to me and lyrics. Its my journal with songs I don't even dare to tell anyone I wrote. I would write in this journal when I was in troubled times.

"and I, I can come alive. I want the room to take me under, because I can't help but wonder"

"what if I"

"had one more night for goodbye, if your not here to turn the lights off, I can't sleep. these four walls and me"

by the time I finished singing the last part, my eyes were full of tears. this song, that I put so much passion and love too, brings so many painful memories.

"You're very talented."

I looked up and saw Zayn leaning on my door frame with a smile. I couldn't help but smile as well.

"Thanks. but aren't you suppose to be asleep, or did I wake you up? I'm so sor-"

"Perrie, it's no big deal."

As soon as he said that, he mumbled something else, which I heard. I rolled my eyes and smiled at the boy in front of me.

He invited himself to take a seat on the corner of my bed.

"Have another song?" he asked. I gave him my book so he can see how much 'crap' I write. The only reason I showed him is because I had a feeling he wouldn't care.

I eyed him carefully so he wouldn't see what's on the back of book. or else ill be screwed and embarrassed.

"I like this one." he gave me back my book and once I saw which song he liked, I smiled.

"It's not even done yet." he smiled even wider.

"And plus, its a duet."

He looked at me, like he was trying to figure out something.

"Can I sing it with you?" I raised and eyebrow at him.

"Okay, I'm not that bad of a singer you know, unless you like the sound of a dying rat." he said, laughing along the way.

"Fine."

He was so close but for some reason, I was uncomfortable but I didn't even mind at the same time. His arms were like 2 inches away from mine and the book was in between my left leg and his right leg.

"Who goes first?"

"Ill go." I said.

"By the way, this song is so cheesy." I said as he turned to look at me with amused grin.

"It reminds me of the 90s."

"Still cheesy.."

"I like the song." I smiled.

He laughed at my reaction. He just looked back at me and gave me a look that said, 'sing the thing already'.

"You had me at hello" I started.

"and there something you should now baby"

"boy you keep on blowin' my mind, caught up in my emotions."

"You could be my mr.loverboy" I started to smile.

"The way you make me feel inside, come back over and over"

"Won't you be my mr.lover- mr.loverboy"

I stopped singing, noticing it was the end.

"Zayn! you didn't sing anything." he just laughed.

"I knew if I told you I would sing with you, you would sing. and you did, without me."

"You bastard."

I turned my head towards him and took in his brown beautiful eyes. There's some thing about this boy that makes me feel different. I didn't think about the things that made me anxious. I was enjoying my time: I was delighted.

"Perrie?" he said still looking at me and he moved closer too me.

"Don't be scared, alright?"

"Okay."

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a/n

oMG NATALIA DID YOU ACTUALLY INCLUDE A DUET HOW CHEESY OF YOU

yes I did
suck it

edited 1/8/16

-ntk