Terminal

Secrets

Secrets

Two weeks have gone by since talking to Josh about touring with them. I'm flying out to them in three days. It has also been two weeks since my doctor's visit. I've been started on other chemotherapy pills. I take one pill twice a day. I also sat down and thought about telling Josh. I couldn't tell him over Skype or text so I have to tell him in person. I still don't know what to say, or how to say it, but he needs to know. I was currently on my laptop when my door bursts open. My sister runs in looking out of breath. "What's wrong?" I ask, swinging my legs over the edge of my bed. "I want to make brownies" I roll my eyes and stand up. "That's why you busted into my room?" I ask acting annoyed. "Yeah" She says it like I was supposed to know. "I'll be down in a minute you dork" She smiles before exiting my room. Dork. I haven't used that nickname since Josh left. I know it's only been a few days but it feels like so much longer. And I also know I sound clingy, but it's such an amazing feeling to finally find someone who you truly care about and truly have a connection with. I throw my arms above my head to stretch them before pulling a pair of socks over my feet. On my way out of my room, I see my wig on my desk. This is the first time since my hair started to fall out that I'll be around my family without my wig on.

Josh's POV

"Josh!" I snap my head up and see Tyler standing outside my bunk. "What's up?" I prop myself up on my elbow to look at him. "I was just checking on you. You've been quiet, you were worrying me" I smile at his consideration. "Thanks man. It means a lot" He smiles and nods his head before rubbing the back of his neck. "What's wrong?" I ask, concerned about him now. "I think Jenna is hiding something from me" He whispers even though Jenna was out with someone she knew from around here. "What do you think she's hiding?" I ask, jumping down from my bunk. "I'm not sure. But it's like she's not telling me something. I just can't pinpoint it" I follow him as he walks into the kitchen area. "I'm sure it's nothing to worry about. She'll tell you eventually" He nods his head as he flops onto the couch. "I just don't like secrets, is all" I nod my head in agreement. Just then, my phone vibrates in my pocket. I pull it out and see Olivia's sister's contact pop up. She gave me her number in case she couldn't get in contact with Olivia but she's never used it until now. I open her message and begin to read. 'Hey it's Olivia's sister. Olivia has something to tell you when she comes to visit you. She doesn't know I'm telling you this so please don't let her know I told you. I just wanted to let you know it's going to be hard for her to tell you so you need to be there for her no matter how much it scares you. It's a scary subject she's going to bring up but she really needs you at this point in her life. So no matter how scared or upset you get, please promise me you will be there for her?' My heart was pounding against my ribcage as I typed back a simple 'yes'. What did she need to tell me? Why is it a scary topic? "I just got the weirdest text from Olivia's sister. I show Tyler the message and his face scrunches up into confusion. "That's unsettling" I nod my head in agreement. "Well now be both have secretive girlfriends"

Olivia's POV

"This pie is so good Oh my God!" My sister says as shestuffs her face full of blueberry pie. "I told you I'm an amazing baker" Iboast while putting the dirty dishes in the dishwasher. "Good idea to make boththe brownies and pie" "No not good idea. This is so not on my diet plan" My momcomplains as she takes another piece of brownie. I giggle before sitting at theisland to join them both. My dad walks into the kitchen to get a glass ofwater. "Oh you made some sweets" he reaches into the bowl and pulls out a hugechunk of brownie. He hounds it down and finishes his glass of water. "Now thatI'm full, I'm going to bed. Goodnight, I love you all" After he leaves, thekitchen was filled with silence until my mom broke it. "Are you excited to staywith Josh for a while?" I take a piece of brownie and roll it between myfingers mindlessly. "Yes. I can't wait to see him" a smile creeps onto my face asthoughts of Josh cloud my mind. "I've never seen you so happy with a guybefore" My sister says happily "That's because no one has made me as happy ashe does. I stand from the island and continue cleaning the counters off. "I'mjust scared to tell him. I don't want him to run away like most of my friendsdid when they found out I was sick" I voice my fears and look at them. Theirfaces were full of sadness. "I also hate when people feel bad for me like I'm acharity case" I throw the dirty rag I was holding at my sister Christina."We're not treating you like a charity case, and that's repulsive" She throwsthe rag back at me and I catch it. "Whatever" I roll my eyes and drop the ragin the sink. A knock at the door broke the now awkward silence. "I got it guys,don't worry" I say to my mom and Christina who were engrossed in their phones."Thanks" They call back to me. I get to the door and look out the window on theside of it. It was Karlie. I rip the door open and engulf her in a hug. "Imissed you" I mumble into her shoulder. She hugs me back and giggles. "I missedyou too" I pull away and take a look at her new appearance. "I have so much totell you" I take her by the hand and pull her in my house, closing the doorbehind us. "Mom Karlie is here" I inform my mom before dragging her upstairs. Iclose the door to my room behind us and flop on my bed. As she walks over tome, she sees my wig on my dresser. "I didn't feel like wearing it" I stare atmy hands as I tell her. "There's nothing to be embarrassed about. Especiallyaround me or your family" She sits at the foot of my bed and sits criss cross."So, any new guys?" Karlie asks as if we're still in high school. "Yesactually" Karlie left right before Josh and I started getting together more."What the hell you didn't find it necessary to tell your best friend?" She actshurt for a few seconds before breaking into a smile. "I can't even pretend tobe mad. Tell me everything" I begin to tell her everything. How we startedtalking after the bar that night, how he took me to dinner then to the beach. Ialso told her how he carried me over the sand to the bed of his truck so Ididn't get sandy. Then I told her he's on tour and he'll be gone for a while."But he's flying me out to stay with him on the road for a few weeks" "Thatshould be fun" She smirks at me. "But I still haven't told him I'm sick" Imumble. "But you're going to?" she asks. "Yes eventually when I get there. I'mjust scared of how he'll take it. You remember how my old friends were. The thoughtof me having cancer scared them away and they haven't messaged me since" Sheshakes her head "That's because they weren't real friends. A real frienddoesn't get scared of your demons, or sicknesses. They help you through it allas best as they possibly can. And same goes for a husband or boyfriend. One whotruly loves you won't run away." She tucks her short hair behind her ear. "Nowtell me, have you done it yet?" It takes me a moment to realize what she wastalking about before it clicked. "Absolutely not! It's too early for that" Ifeel my face heating up. "Is it that, or the fact that you're still a virgin?"She asks. I bite my lip, knowing the answer. "It's embarrassing. I'm twenty twoyears old and still a virgin" "That's okay. You have your reasons" I nod myhead, trying not to get all worked up about it. "So, I'm home for a few daysbefore being flown to California for another photo shoot. So now that I knowyou're leaving to be with Josh" She pauses to smirk at me "I can take youshopping tomorrow and get you a whole new wardrobe." "You know I hate usingother people's money" I complain. "And I also know you hate using your mother'smoney because she's struggling as it is to pay for your treatments. It's fine.I make enough to pay for some new clothes" ja