Songs Of Eternity

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I can never be enough
no matter what I do,
I am a teenager I can be tough
but without you, I can't make it through.

I might not be frail,
I only pretend to never care,
no! my body is not for sale,
I only dress to impress, as another unroyal heir.

I am told I am the biggest size zero,
the biggest of them all,
guess I won't ever win you as my hero,
being over 5 feet tall.

I know of each and every story,
all lies told for a piece of my soul,
nobody would believe the truth much less say sorry,
I feel like their personal entertainment ghoul.

I only eat one meal a day,
a handfull of pills
and then throw it up anyway,
along with my blood that spills.

I used to care for everyone,
now I only wonder...
how to end my misery against these problems a ton,
as they will all continue to live without any sombre.

Self hatred and self loathing forming today's activities,
all because you wouldn't be my knight,
as you leave - erase all of our history and forgotten memories,
the group of you together - will forever blind my sight.

My scars can be traced to form familiar patterns,
zig zag across my torso,
soon it will be untraceable in an urn,
where family will exclaim, 'good riddance, Fatso!'

Who will notice that I have gone?
None.