Lost and Found

Chapter 3

-midnight-

Silence, the room was always filled with silence, with only the slight sound of my breathing filling it. Yet, a new sound began to fill the room. A sound I had not heard of in a long time. A sound I thought I escaped but knew wouldn't last long.

He slept in comfort as I stare at him. I felt a slight smile tug on my lips. Despite being in such an average room, it's still better than his room at the Adachi main house. If I remember correctly, it was horribly under furnished, and only consisted of a bed and desk, no windows. The place hardly felt like a home.

Still staring at him I tilt my head slightly. His features had grown more mature and masculine in my absence. I scoffed, he's grown taller to, something I've always been lacking. When I saw him at the principles office I only noticed a tall dark figure standing in front of the principles desk. Though when his piercing lapis blue eyes met my lilac ones, I knew immediately who it was. It was a beautiful color not many had, and whenever I saw those eyes warmth had always engulfed me, but when those eyes met mine I felt fear go down my spine.

I clench my fist, the feeling hasn't gone away. I couldn't handle this game anymore. I left the house back then before my emotions tore me up from the inside out. The only safeness I felt there was being beside Jay. His naiveness and innocence to the burden I've chosen to take for us both was my only serenity. Yet at the same time, I was in hell. I was alone with no one to bear the pain with me. Whenever we laughed like the innocent kids we wear I had always felt an annoying ring in the back of my head. Reminding me that forgetting for even a moment was unacceptable.

Loosening my grip I sighed. We have a master and servant relationship despite his outstanding background. The Adachi and Ando's were always like this due to the long history both clans had with each-other. Being my helper, or partner as I prefer to call it, just being ordinary wasn't good enough. Due to gaining so much responsibility, Jay had to go under meticulous training both physically and mentally. It was as if they were making the perfect butler, the perfect servant.

Looking over at my desk I stare at the book The wanderer by Marcus Dobrin. I feel my heart tightening, I had thought there was hope. Hope he had remembered, but I had quickly slapped myself internally when I figured out he only knew the story due to his intensive studies.

"Jay" I mumble to myself "how many times must I see you die. To see those Lapis eyes drain of any life that was within it."

The Adachi and Ando curse of reincarnation. That was what we were subjected to. In order to preserve the stability within our clans there was a ritual given to the head of the Ando's and his servant from the Adachi. Me and Jay were the strongest genes they've ever had come to them so their reliance on us was immense. The ritual was done on our death bed, I at the time was breathing my last breath while Jay was gone far long before me. It was during our final mission. There were demons and monsters seeping from the underground and the Adachi and Ando were assigned to eradicate any hostile treatment that would befall the people they encountered. I shiver, I still shake at the memory.

All I remember in my first death was Jay laying in a pile blood, who's blood didn't matter at that point, and me reaching out to him as our souls departed from our body. As my vision blurred I saw a group of the Ando and Adachi heads surround us, the leader mouthing to me something I couldn't comprehend. Before I knew it I woke up as a newborn baby, not even crying or kicking. Just staring at the familiar yet different room the nurse had held me in. They waited till I was about 5 to inform me of the unofficial ritual they performed on me and my partner. In the beginning I was outraged, they had basically chained us to the clans due to their fear of not being able to survive without us. I saw it as pathetic. I never intended to create such a weak willed clan, let alone two.

I couldn't be so rash though, I quickly ordered someone to send me Jay. If my memories were in tact then Jay's should've been, right?

-flashback-

"Bring me Jay, Now! We will discuss your punishments together."

They look at me hesitantly. I grew impatient and snapped, "Despite whatever form I may have, I am still the head of this clan! My orders are absolute!"

Looking beyond petrified the people I ordered quickly left the room yelling others to quickly get Jay. I grimaced as I looked down at my hands. While waiting I sat down on a chair trying to calm myself and think about the situation.

"We'll think of something together" I constantly repeated to myself. "Jay will take care of it"

When the door finally opened a boy my age appeared. The piercing lapis blue eyes was all it took for me to know who he was and I quickly ran towards him for an embrace. Feeling myself about to cry I quickly ordered the others in the room to leave while I spoke with Jay alone. Grabbing his small hand I motioned him over to the table where we sat.

"It's been a while. I'm sorry You've waited so long"

Smiling at him brightly and receiving an amazing smile in return I took a sip of some tea that was on the table.

"Umm.." Jay finally says

Looking at his empty glass I mentally slapped myself, "sorry, you can't really get a drink in this state right? I'll quickly call for someone"

"No, not that," he says while shaking his head rapidly, "it's just"

"just what?"

"you're," he pauses, "really nice"

I look at him in confusion, "of course I'm nice. We're partners."  We're connected

This time he looked at me confused, "isn't this the first time we've met?"

End of Flashback

I shivered at the memory. After he said that I quickly excused myself out of the room and started yelling at anyone I could fine to gather all the elders and the heads of the two clans to the meeting room. Despite trying to justify their actions by trying to maintain the strength of the clans I took none of it. I secluded myself in my room which was locked up previously until my rebirth. Nothing was touched or moved when I entered, it was sort of a relief. It didn't take me long to reach the conclusion that what's done is done and accepting was the only thing I could do at the time.

I gritted my teeth. My biggest miscalculation was the burden that came with it. I believed that as long as Jay was okay and that we were together everything would be alright and the burden would be worth the weight. However every life we went through, no matter how many things I've done or changed, Jay ends up dying for the sake of either me or the clans. Every last breathe he has had is still clearly imprinted in my mind. It didn't matter if we were going to see each other in the next life, Jay may not know it but he's been subjected to the pain by the clans for thousands of years and me nor the clans are worth his sacrifice.

"I'm sorry Jay," I whimpered out as I held back my tears, "I couldn't take it anymore."

You're both my strength and weakness.