Words That Have No Meaning

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i go over our old conversations too often. more than i should. if at all. i miss how we use to be. we were so open with one another. we told each other everything. now we don't talk at all. i miss how we would stay up all night having never ending conversations. that made us happy- me happy. i miss talking to you everyday & how we would ask each other about how our days went. most importantly- i miss you. with everything i am & everything i have. i don't think you know how much I cared for you. how greatly you impacted my life. how much you meant to me. how much i loved you. the only reason i felt living was important anymore, was because of you. you gave me meaning. you gave me happiness. you gave me hope. & then you left. i didn't know what to do with myself. old habits are always there to comfort you when you're distressed. as i write this the same tight pain in my chest returns, just like the one i felt when i realized i had finally lost you for good. you're a love i'll never get over or forget. you were the greatest love of my life. the one I wish i still had.