Words That Have No Meaning

Sleep

You never said sorry. You never apologized for breaking my heart. You blamed me for everything. When it was all you. You said I let go. How can I hold onto something that is no longer there? How can you expect me to keep patching myself up when you're the reason I keep cracking? All I ever hear you say is how I only care about myself & that I'm selfish. Selfish? How can I be the selfish one when I'm struggling to catch my breath & you don't even care? I feel as if there is a black hole inside of me consuming any feeling I have. I feel empty. I feel numb. And it's because of you. I just want to sleep & never wake up because your words still haunt my thoughts every second of every day. How is that fair? How come you get to stay afloat while I stay sinking? I was drowning & you never thought to save me. Now I'm but a lifeless corpse roaming the earth without a cause. Except I'm very much alive screaming for you to help. But you can't hear me. So as I roam I will always hope that one day I'll find peace & fall into a deep sleep & never wake up.