Finally

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Today was the last day of filming my new movie. I needed to finish the movie I'm already going to disappoint them soon. Tomorrow I plan too go to my favorite bridge and finally live my fantasy. Finally I will leave this stupid, ugly, cold world. I will finally be at peace with my self. Yes, I understand that my fans will miss me and maybe my family but soon enough they will forget all about me. All,about Alina Black.

Today I will go home eat a good dinner then I will sleep with ease knowing I will never have to do that again. I will sleep with ease knowing that I will not have to fake another smile. I really smile at the thought of never having a fake friend that will use me for my fame and money. I smile at the thought of never having to deal with this world. I smile at the thought of never having to worry about someone recognizing me from high school.

I finally arive home and get set on my last dinner. I make some steak with mashed potatoes and a bit of Mac and cheese. Then I sit down to my last meal. (And yes I can make food on my own.)

When I finish dinner I wash my dishes and go to watch netflix. I watch the rest of E.T. because I never finished it. Then I watch some supernatural. I watch my favorite episodes. By the time I finished it was it was 12:20 a.m. I plan on leaving the house at about 5 in the morning so I don't run into that one guy that I saw at the park.

     With that plan in place I go up to my room and get my last hours of sleep. I quickly drifted away blissfully knowing that soon I will be gone in a world with no pain.

     My alarm woke me up at 4:30 and I got into my favorite shirt and a pair of jeans that I had picked out. I got a sweater, pair of headphones, and my phone and I was out the door. It was cool but beautiful outside. I could see the moon and stars in the sky, there was a gentle breeze, and the only light was coming from the sky.

     The trees and houses look so beautiful under the dim moonlight. I think about my mom, my producer, all my fans, Amelia. They would barely care, be shocked for a couple of days then go back to their happy, easy lives. I bet it will be on magazines and the news, soon everyone will know about the sad actress who killed herself. But like all news it will fade and people won't care any more, the new top story will roll around and no one will remember me. That's for the better though.

     I reach the park and look around, thankfully nobody is here! I mean it is 5 in the morning, well that's beside the point. I slowly make my way to the bridge then I start to think of all of the moments that led up to this most of them including all of the teasing from high school.

                                                                         FLASHBACK

            It was the day I dreaded the most the first day of senior year. I understand that this should be the best day of my life but you don't realize that I'm Amy from Littleton high. Yep you guessed I'm the emo depressed freak that always sat in the back of the cafeteria all alone. At least that's what they called me everyday when they beat me up in the bathroom then left me there once again all alone.But on this day one thing was different when I left the bathroom something different happened.

"Hey are you okay?" Some guy asked me as I walked out of the bathroom. I didn't know what to do so I just nodded and ran away. Then he ran after me and asked again, "Are you okay?" he asked. After that we became "friends". To cut that story short I liked him he made me think he liked me back then embarrassed me in front of the whole school.  Before I had never cut more than twice in a week but that was the day I cut whenever I could as deep and as much as I could.  More than once I had went to the hospital when I cut too deep.

                                                           PRESENT

But of course no one cared. I graduated and didnt want to be remembered so I changed my name to Alina Black and became  a successful actress. The depression never lessened nor went away I still cut I still had no one that actually cared about me.

I walked to the bridge and looked over, The current is really fast I hope thats good. I slowly pull my suicide note under a small bar then i slowly pull myslef over the edge silently crying going over the momories. Then I slowly let go of the bar and slowly I'm balancing on the ledge then I whisper, "Goodbye"......


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I got a computer so maybe just maybe there will be faster updates. Also I left it on a cliffhanger. Hope you enjoyed please don't be a silent reader till next time.

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