The Diary Of A Guy Named Jared.

I don't care.

Hey diary. It's been longer than long enough to talk to you. Hmm, Now I have three jobs, no time for school, to many feelings, and a little too much family in my life.

I'm going to admit, I am scared of love. I ready am, no lie. My heart is kinda slippery like a bar of soap, I can't hold it for long.

My feelings are all out of wack, some things are fine others are hot when supposed to be cold and cold when supposed to be hot.

I can't hold one thought at the moment.

Yesterday Jace stabbed me and I lit my arm on fire, to ease the pain I was smoking some weed, yes the medical kind.

Yesterday was one of the wost days in history. I wanted to express feelings I couldn't keep straight.

I got mad at Priscilla and we are no longer friends. I wanted to set down the truth but something told me to leave her alone, that she was going to come back for me.

I've been wanting to talk to one person, but when I do I'm afraid. Afraid  what I might say, would it hurt her or make her kill me. Like I said I can't keep things straight anymore.

Her name is ____ yeah I'm not telling you.

Current Crushes.. You can say I was.drunk when I wrote this part.

Crush 1: A really really awesome.person that thinks I hate them. And this person is as beautiful and as deadly as a black rose with poisonous thorns.

Crush 2: A person I've been sleeping next to.. Jk, Someone I'm really close to.

Crush 3: Someone I've been crushing on for a while. For this persons personality not thier photo.

Crush 4: Someone who is cute as a bee..not really this person should.be on the next Magic Mike..True..

P.S.

If Crush #1 is reading this..I have butterflies.