I still can remember perfectly the moment when I received the call, it was just some minutes ago... I was in the office, drinking my daily coffee and working on my famous and almost enjoyable paperwork, Jane had just leaved my office, we were talking about some Red John stuff, he told me he was going to an address but I didn't understand it quite right, so I stood up with the purpose of asking him again.
I was walking toward the parking lot In order to find him when my phone rang.
'Teresa Lisbon? '
'Yes' I replied, I didn't recognize the voice, but by her tone I knew something was wrong.
'Hi, Im Spencer Bond, I work in the german main street hospital, they told be to call you, Im sorry to tell you this but Virgil Minnelli had a heart attack, he didn't make it till here.... Im sorry' She said to me in a sweet and comprehensive voice, how many times a day does she makes this call?
I couldn't speak, tears where all over my eyes, I thought it wasn't happening, that it was all a terrible nightmare.
'Thank you' I just told her and then hanged up.
I just sight, cleaned my tears and walked towards my car, It was the one place when I knew I was alone, I knew it was the best place to cry, no one could saw me there.
I hided my face in my arms and supported on the steer wheel to cry, I cried till was nothing left to cry, it hurt as much as loosing my father... He was like a father for me, the father I never had, it was by girl dream of him taking me to the altar.
I stayed calm another minutes and decided it was better to go and help Jane with the case, that way I could distract myself.
And here I am now, driving trying to find the correct address, I still cant believe what had happened, my father... It gone forever, an I wasn't able to say goodbye. A part of me want to hide in a room locked, when no one can find be or see me this weak, but the other part of me tells that I have to stay strong, as I did with my mothers death, today not or my brothers, but for my team, they are the only family I have left. Does Jane feel this way everyday? Regretful of not saying goodbye?
I just notice its raining, pouring. Minnelli always said he would like a good farewell, I think California had gave it to him.
Im trying to guess the correct street when I pass through a park and see Jane's car, why is he here? Wasn't he supposed to go to this witness house? The house its about 4 more blocks away.
I park my car and go out, standing under the rain that remembers me an angel had die today, I cross my arms trying to support myself, I dont want to be seem this way by Jane.
He is sitting in a bench under a tree, though this one doesn't protect him from rain.
I sigh and walk towards him, doubting if it the right thing to do, but when im about to leave he turns around and see me, I can see him smiling to me, he's about 5 meters away, I want to walk towards him, to show him everything is fine, im not ready to tell them the news but I just cant my heart is freezing, I want this nightmare to be over.
I stay standing here, arms cross and enjoying the cold rain.
Watching me freeze Jane stands up from the bench and walks softly towards me, he stays quiet until he reaches me, his whole suit is wet, his golden curls play with the drops of rain.
'Come here' he says smiling sweetly and crossing his arms around me, giving me a sweet embrace.
He hugs me tightly and I step myself nearer him.
'Its okay, Teresa, Its okay' he says and places his head over mine, kissing my forehead. He already knows, I hug I'm back and hide my head in his chest, I collapse, I cant stop myself, I just cry.
'Cry Lisbon, everything is okay, I'm here, breath' he whispers at the same time he plays with my curls. I cant stop but hug him more, he is everything I need now, He is everything I've always need.
'People who cry its not because they are weak, its because they've been strong for too long' He kisses me in te forehead again, he knows I hate crying, but the thought of knowing he is the only thing I have left and that I'll probably lose him makes me cry more.
I raise my head and look at him, he cleans my tears with his thumb and smiles me a supporting smile.
'You wont lose me, Im right here'
He strokes my hair and I go back to hide more onto his chest, and here we stay hugged under the rain. Jane stroking my back as he hums me a lullaby and me supporting on his chest while hearing the sweet beats of his heart.
