chapter 4 :
adolfo's pov :
as we were walking next to eachother and searching for a map or something like that, the conversation went pretty well actually. she was pretty shy though. but i asked her if she came here often, and if she liked this place. she did. i even asked her about one direction. she blushed again, probably thinking back at our little meeting at the parking lot.
'but seriously, why do you love that band so much?' i asked actually wondering.
and that one sentence cracked her open.
'because they make amazing music and they look fucking perfect every single one of them! they're crazy and funny and romantic and... '
'okay , okay! i get it! 'i stopped her, smiling.
when i looked at her again , she was smiling at me too. her cute , little dimples expressioning her cute , playful yet shy character.
'sorry. she said, looking away. when i talk about one direction i just.. i don't know i just cant stop.'
i smiled back at her. 'it's alright. i get pretty excited too when i talk about neyo. '
'neyo? she looked at me with her eyes popped wide open. i love his music too! if i wasn't a directioner i bet you could call me neyo-er!'
'neyo-er?'i repeated with a raised eyebrow.
'yeah, i don't know but you know what i mean, right?'
i smiled. 'yeah , i know what you mean.'
'you know samantha.. you're pretty weird' , i said while taking my hand in hers. then i moved my lips to her ear whispering : 'i love it.' she shivered and swallowed nervously.she looked at our hands intertwined with eachother, then looked back at me. she then smiled like she was the happiest girl on the planet.
oh those dimples... i then looked into her eyes filled with joy and happiness, and somehow..it made me a little happier knowing that she is happy. which is weird. i never get happy when someone's happy besides my brother and... my parents... well... before they died.
flashback:
i was in the field in front of our big house, standing in the middle of nowhere. (not literally, but we didn't have any neighbours.) i was sitting on a big branch that had fallen down from a tree. it was quite peacefull, playing with a leaf, staring at the calm river in front of me that surrounded our house. when suddenly my dad sat next to me. hey son. hey dad! i said exciting. my mom and i are going grocery shopping, so were going to be away for about two hours. (the shopping mall was very far away.) your brother is inside if you need anything. sure dad. i gave him a quick hug, not knowing that was the last hug i was gonna give to him. bye adolfo! he said while walking away slowly. bye dad! i waved after him. he then turned around for the last time.
'is something wrong?' a cute girl voice popped me out of my daydream.
i looked up quickly. 'oh.. yeah..sorry about that.
' what were you thinking about? she asked with a conserning look on her face. awh, she actually cares...
'oh..just...nothing. forget it.'
she hestitated but then quickly changed the topic talking about flowers , and how much she loved them. i just looked at her , pretending to listen, actually checking her out big time. she didn't even notice. or she pretendet not to.
i also enjoyed her talking. she was so shy , yet very enthousiastic and fun when she was talking about something she likes.
she isn't like all the fake bitches that usually catch my eye. but, that's actually all they ever did. catch my eye. this girl is something else.
when she stopped talking, an awkward silence followed. and i became more and more aware of the fact that my hand was still in hers. and that i really didn't feel like letting go. i found myself looking at her once again. when she noticed i was looking at her she let a shy smile come across her face.
adrenaline rush.
shit, am i falling for her now? no! stop it! don't i remember my mission? that really isn't gonna work if i'm falling for her. she hass to fall in love with me, not the other way around.
for my own safety , i pulled back my hand wich i was still aware of of being in her this entire time. and she didn't let go...
adrenaline rush. no! stop it!
she looked at me , dissapintment dripping from her face. i felt sorry for her, that i had to do all this. she really doesn't deserve what i'm going to do to her. but i gotta stay strong. i let out a deep sigh and we walked along.
samantha's pov :
when we were at his door, he started to pull the most beautiful smirk i've ever seen in my life.
i raised one eyebrow confusingly. 'why are you laughing?'
he stood right across me, his face milimeters removed from mine. he looked deeply into my eyes with his beautiful dark ones that gave me an almost- heartattack. it looked like his eyes have changed too throughout our converstion. like they've gone softer and more caring... but it also could be just my imagination. 'i forgot to take my keys with me, and my brother is sleeping so i have to wake him up now.' he said in a deep , serious voice. jeez, everything he did or say was sexy.
i looked back at his beautiful eyes, thinking of how i could ever be this lucky to be actually able to do this. a lot of girls would go far to be where i'm standing right now. he moved his eyes to my mouth, and before i could think of anything else, he crushed his lips on mine. he didn't go any further. but it was enough to make me red as a tomato again.
'i'm happy i met you, samantha.' and with that, he faced the door , and rang the doorbell. i just stood there, red as fuck didn't know what to do. 'uhm.. yeah me too, so uhm.. see you tomorrow then?' i looked at him hopelessly for an answer, but he didn't reply. he just stood there , his eyes watching the door. he didn't even have the decent to look at me. 'adolfo? hello? see you tomorrow?' seconds were passing and i became impatient . anger started to borrle up , and just as i turned around to leave, he called my name.
'samantha.' he said with a cold , annoyed voice. i turned around to see that his eyes were the exact same eyes full of arrogance that i saw at the parking lot.
he sighed deeply. 'look, samantha. i had a wonderfull time with you , but it has to stop. now. i can't do this for a reason , and it's just best if we stop now before we fall in love.'
it was like a knife thru my heart. how could he say that? i just had the best time of my life, and he doesn't even give a fuck. as i tried to hold back my tears, i let my face harden. and before i knew it, it was filled with hate. i don't know what came over me but it wasn't me speaking when i lost my mind. 'do you think i could ever fall in love with a guy like you? you arrogant son of a bitch. you enjoy this don't you? letting girls fall in love with you, and then break their heart. well not me, dick. . feel good about yourself now? feel like you have the power now?
and with that i turned around , not wanting to see the emotions forming on his face , knowing it would be nothong but arrogance.
i let a tear slip my eye, and i almost wiped it away when i thought about him still watching me. i didn't want to let him know that he just hurt me like fuck, that everything we did just felt so right, and that i kept having this feeling that he might be the one. but he isn't. and he needed to know that i wasn't one of those girls you could play with. as much as i wanted him , i swore to myself that day i wouldn't look at him another second. this has to end. i fall in love too easily and i have to stop it. from now on , every boy has to earn my love ,and fight for it. if not , he doesn't deserve my love. adolfo doesn't deserve my love. not like he wants it anyway... don't think about it , samantha. he's not worth it.
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a/n : drama...i love it hahah. thnx for reading so far! XOXO
