samantha's pov:
days went by without talking to adolfo. sure, we looked at eachother. and i thought about him. but we haven't spoken yet. i know he wants to though. but i don't. actually that's not true. i want to talk to him , but i'm too scared. i mean, yeah he beat up a guy for me. that's...kinda nice i guess. but why he did it, and the way he did it. it was like he was a monster. and he wanted to use a gun on him. a gun! why did he even carry it around with him? and why did he even think about using it?
oh, michael is okay btw. adolfo seriously just walked away after beating him up. so i figured i'd call an ambulance. they took him with them , made him stay for a day and now he's as good as new. well...except for a broken nose, , two black eyes, a busted rib and a scar crossing his lips. but he shouldn't be too worried about that. the scar actually looks kinda tough. and the rest will heal by itsself. he still doesn't know adolfo was actually going for the kill, but i didn't tell him either. he was already frightened of adolfo, i think telling him that would be the end of our friendship. and that would be a shame, since we get along really well. even though i've known him for a week now, i have a feeling i've known him since forever. i just feel so comfortable being around with him. and we have a lot of fun.
i keep having this feeling he' likes me though. cause everytime i touch him he blushes, and i can just tell by the way he looks at me. i don't feel anything for him, though. it would be a lot easier if i did actually. but noooo, i have to fall for the bad guy who almost killed my friend for having his armpit sweating on my shoulder. uhg...sometimes i try to find any feelings for michael but they really aren't there. i kinda want them to be , cause i feel sorry for michael. i mean, he likes me a lot, he's gotten beat up for it and he still hangs out with me. that's pretty brave. he's a really good guy. and i don't wanna hurt him.
sigh...i can't concentrate on this book at all. i closed it and threw it right back on the bed stand. i turned around on my bed, so i was now facing the bottom of the bed above me. i let my finger trail down the metal. and then i let my feet come up to kick it. it was kind of hypnitising, watching the matress go up and down by just pushing my feet against it. what to do when you're bored? well, what i'd choose above anything would be to go to adolfo, talk to him, lay with him on the beach again, kiss him, have children together...wow what?
i chuckled at myself.sometimes my mind does crazy things.
anyways, even if he beat up michael, and even though he carry's a gun with him , and even thoughf he's agressive like fuck and even though i'm scared of him, i still like him. a lot. and i can't keep him off my mind. how much i wanted to. and relplace him by michael. but i can't! wich is kinda frustrating. should i call michael and see if he can hang out? or should i go to the pool by myself? michael can't join me since he got all that bandage and broken bones. or maybe i could make some new friends? nah, i have one. that's enough. i'm just gonna text him i guess.
samantha :
hey wanna hang out?
hot blonde:
with you? always ;)
yes, he's still called hot blonde. maybe i should change that. it could be that i'm leading him on. i don't wanna do that. i'll change it later. i stood up to get ready to go to michaels tent.
adolfo's pov :
i looked out of my big window, and i saw samantha walking out of it, looking gorgeous as ever. i felt butterflies wings scrape the inside of my stomach. and i figured this was my shot. i didn't think a second and rushed over to her.
she was shokked to see me, and the fear was still lingering in her eyes. it hurt me again. she's still afraid of me.she kept moving on , walking really fast, until i stopped right in front of her, blocking her from going any further. just like i did when i "lost the way". it seems to work. she stopped and swallowed nervously.
'don't be afraid of me please, i won't ever hurt you.' as easy as it was to lie to others, as hard as it was to lie to her. it hurts me everytime saying that i won't hurt her. if only it was the truth. well, without my mission it would be the truth. cause i would never hurt her intensionally.
she suddenly grabbed her phone.brutally, i looked at the screen with her.
hot blonde :
what's taking you so long babe? i wanna see you <3
i wish i haven't seen that, because at that one moment my stomach turned , my muscles started to tighten and i had to clench my fists not to burst out in front of her again. my jealousy and anger were out of control again.
whatever i do , i won't let her go to michael and let her have fun times with him. she's supposed to spend time with me! she did, asshole , until you almost killed michael. i had to think quick, so the first thing i did was throw her over my shoulder and take her to the beach, where we used to have such a wonderful time.
she screamed at first. 'Aaah! put me down, you jerk!' she said while slamming her fists into my back. i laughed at her naïtivity. i didn't even feel anything.but i did feel something else.i felt the power over this girl, and the fact that she couldn't get away even if she wanted to. or does she want to? nah, she's just pretendding. deep down she loves the fact that i'm taking her away. i just know. halfway there, she stopped screaming and hitting me. i figured she gave up. wich is good, cause it was getting annying. now i could walk along with peace. i had to admit, the fact that her butt was next to my face, made it hard not to squeeze it. but even i knew this wasn't the right time to do such thing.
when we arrived at the beach, i put her down.
she crossed her arms and looked at me with a bossy excpression.' what do you want?'
' you.' i said while giving her the look again. if only it wasn't true.
she softened her excpression and let her arms fall, putting them into the front pockets of her tight shorts that suit her body so, so good. i couldn't not look at it, and she noticed.
'my eyes are up here.' she said chuckling a bit.
and then the tension between us softened. i chuckled along with her. after, there were a few moments of silence.
then i started apologising. 'i'm sorry samantha. i know how you've seen me isn't how you wanted to. but it wasn't me. it was jealousy taking over me because i couldn't stand the fact that he had his arm wrapped around your shoulder. and most of all, that you let him. why?' that last word came out emotionally. too emotionally for me. she probably thought i was pretending. i wish i was.
she looked into my eyes for a few moments, obviously thinking. then, her eyes softened a little. 'are you seriously that jealous?'
i grinned. 'only with you. if i want something really bad, no one else can have it but me. it's who i am. and i can't help it. i don't think i will ever change.'
she looked at me again for a few moments , and then smiled.' i think i can live with that.'
and with those words we were smiling at each other like we just made up. and i think we did. come here. she said while opening her arms to pull me in for a hug.
'oh, i'm not the huggy type of person, sorry.' i said kind of awkwardly.
'come here!' she loudened her voice.
'uhm..i..okay.' i accepted her hug. it was really awkward, but it felt kinda nice. i realised i haven't done this ever again since my last hug with dad. that thought made me sad insantly. . after a few moments we pulled back and her face was visible. and that somehow made me happy again. it was like she was softening the pain a little, just by showing me her face. i'm gonna tell her. i'm gonna tell her all about my parents and how i got into all this mess. oh shit i can't tell her. my mission. my stupid stupid mission i hate so much.
oh well, just enjoy this moment. enjoy it while she's still here. with me. with my hands i cupped her delicate face that i know i won't be able to forget .ever. damn , i already lost my parents , i don't wanna lose her! it just hurts too much. there's only so much that a person can take. i sighed deeply and she noticed. what's wrong? i looked at her beautiful green eyes full of wonder and kissed her, enjoying every single moment while it still lasts.
