•Chapter 14•

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"What?"

"You can't go beyond this point sir."

"But I need to see her. Please."

My head was swirling around in circles. What was happening?

All of this has happened in about three hours. Time has stopped. She was on the other side of those doors and I couldn't get in there. I couldn't see her. If she were to die, I couldn't see her face one last time. All I would remember was her screaming my name while I was being held down so I couldn't help her.

If she dies then I will take my own life.

I need this girl. She can't die. So, I did something that I haven't done in probably 10 years. I prayed.

Dear God,

Please. Please keep her alive. You've seen me without her. You've seen that I need her, I can't lose her. Just please keep her alive. In your name I pray

Amen.

"Are you okay kid?" The doctor asked me. I've been standing here for about 5 minutes just praying for her to be okay.

I look at him with eyes that have been crying for what feels like hours. And then I ran. I ran so fast. I ran into the parking lot and sat there. I looked up at the sky and the stars while I cried.

*six months earlier*

I looked over and saw Jordan. Lying on the drive. Her hair all sprawled out on the ground. I turned on my phone.

3:45

"God damn Jordan you're still rambling on!" I laughed.

"Haha mister I do what I want..." And she continued rambling.

Present

That day was one of the best days of my life. Just being with her. Seeing her. It didn't need to be special for it to be the best day of my life. Jordan has done so much for me. I can't afford to loose her. I lied there and just stared into the sky.

All of a sudden the doors to the hospital opened and I saw mother. "I heard what happened." She said. She sat next to me and just stared like I was.

"Cmon we're going to save a life today." She said looking at me. And then, I remembered something else.

*7th grade*

The school bus stopped at my stop and Jordan got off with me. As we were walking I looked around and made a happy sigh.

"What?" She asked. "What are you thinking?" She asked me.

"I'm thinking about how happy I am." I replied calmly.

"Why are you particularly happy right now?" She asked.

"I don't really know Jordan, I don't really know."

We walked a little further and I heard Jordan gasp.

"OH MY GOD!!! ITS A BIRD BUT ITS HURT!!" She yelled.

She ran up to me and simply stated "Cmon we're going to save a life today."

*Present*

Mom took my hand and we walked back into the hospital. Back up the elevator and over to room 667.

"Listen sir I've already said it, you can't come in here." The doctor reminded me.

"Well, not to rain on your parade but, I'm taking him in here." Mom said as she took out her badge proving she worked here.

"Okay fine. Don't touch anything." The pissed off Doctor plainly stated.

And then, I saw her. Laying there with her fragile body, the stab wounds critical. I walk over to her, mother next to me.

"Listen, it's your choice if you want to stay or if you want to go. I just really want you to stay. I love you." I quoted her favorite movie, If I Stay. It was her choice, I just hope she would make the right one.

[A/N] okay y'all, it's about to get If I stay all up in here so grab your popcorn and let's goooooo!

Jordan's POV

"Listen, it's your choice if you want to stay or if you want to go. I just really want you to stay. I love you."

I watched as he talked to my body. I stood right next to him, and he didn't even know. I put my hand on Ash's back. It really was my choice. But I started to think, should I stay or should I go? He stood up and walked over to his mother. In which I followed. 

"Mom, what blood type does she have?"

"A-positive," she looked at him with sad eyes, "and you're B-positive." She said. He looked at her with the saddest eyes.

"Does she need someone to donate?" He asked.

"No no I'll get better Ash, I promise. It's okay! I don't need a donation! I'll fix it!" I said. But since I am the way I am right now, he can't hear me.

He turned around and looked at my body. "It's alright. I'm going to help her Ashton." His mom said.

He just slowly walked out. I ran behind. And when I caught up to him I slid my little ghost hand into his huge one.

"FUCK! WHY CAN'T I DO ANYTHING? WHY CAN I HELP HER?" He yelled in the empty hallway.

I stood there and didn't move. And he started walking to the roof.

"Ash, it's going to be okay don't worry. I'll fix myself, I'll stay I promise!" I cried.

He opened the door to the roof and looked over the city. "This is all my fault, I could've done something to get out there before she got stabbed. But I didn't."

"No no no, Ashton is not your fault. You didn't do anything. You couldn't have."

He needed to hear that. He had to.

"NO! IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT ASHTON!"

He looked over the ledge and cried. I stood next to him and cried as well. I couldn't tell him anything at all. He couldn't hear me. There was nothing I could do to make him hear it.

He turned around and walked back into the hospital, and I just sat on the ledge thinking.

I have to stay.

I got down and stood in the middle of the roof.

"I HAVE TO STAY, HELP ME. HELP ME STAY PLEASE! HE NEEDS ME. FIX ME NOW, MAKE ME FEEL AGAIN! WAKE ME UP!"

I just stood there crying and yelling. And I started yelling at myself.

"WAKE UP! GET UP! STOP SLEEPING AND WAKE UP! CMON JORDAN GET UP! THERES STILL TIME! CMON OPEN YOUR EYES! GET UP JORDAN! YOUR LIFE JUST LEFT THIS ROOF AND NEEDS YOU MORE THAN EVER! GET UP NOW! I yelled.

{meanwhile in room 667}

Nurse: "She's awake."

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