Tension (boyxboy)

Chapter 12

Carl's POV

Well shit. This is awkward...I can't get a single word out of my mouth. The guy just saw me masturbating and he seems more chill than me right now. What even

"Ca-"

"Yes!" I cut him off

He looked at me confused and I could tell that I was red. You can't blame me. I'm really embarrassed about everything he saw and heard

"Um. Carl. The reason I came was because your dad asked me to move in since I'm alone"

"Oh yeah I know that"

"Yeah" he laughed awkwardly, sliding his fingers through his hair

"And I also wanted to let you know that if we will be living under the same roof. I want to be okay with you"

"Okay?" I asked, slightly confused

"Yes...as in whatever happened between us never actually happened"

Jeez. That hurt more than what it sounded

"Everything?"

"Yes. It's better. Specially for you because you seem all uncomfortable with it"

Ahhhhh back at it again. Down to one all over again. I literally just stared at him for seconds after he said that. Without saying. One. Fucking. Word.

"Bitch" I muttered

"What?"

"BITCH! B. I. T. C. H! Mother fucking piece of shit bitch." I yelled and stood up, yanking him from my bed and throwing him to the floor

"Woah Carl! Chill the fuck down! What has gotten into you?!" He spat and from my point of view he seemed really scared

"I've told you so many times that I enjoy every fucking shit we do, but somehow you always make me sound like a homophobe!"

"Well excuse me for thinking that after everything that has happened! Specially that night with Maggie!"

"I'm sorry okay?! IMREALLYFUCKINGSORRY" I raddled "I'm scared. Not ashamed!"

"I can't do this" Ron managed to say and stood up from the floor "I'm leaving. Tell your dad that I'll find somewhere else to live in"

this side of Ron was really pissing me off, so I decided to show him who he was really messing with. Carl. Fucking. Grimes.

I grabbed him from behind and pinned him against the door. Locking it. Watching him struggle against my grip

"Let me go you piece of shit!" He growled

I didn't know what I was doing now. This side of me rarely comes and it sometimes scares me. It's like I'm a whole different person and I'm not intending to hurt Ron, so instead of backing out from my moment I grabbed the back of his neck and crashed our lips together, but surprisingly as soon as our lips touched he kicked me in the stomach which only made me collapse to the floor in pain.

What. The. Actual. Fuck.

If we were to fuck he would be doomed by now.
Jesus why am I even thinking about that...just saying that I would definitely top...I know so! I think so?

The whole moment ended when I heard him whimper. I looked up at him still holding my stomach. He collapsed to the floor next to me and started to cry. At first I was confused at his sudden change of mood, but at the same time I felt sorry for him

"Ron-"

"Just don't fucking touch me please!" He whimpered "It hurts"

What does that mean? How does it hurt him? We barely kissed

"It hurts like hell. Knowing that everything we share will be gone or that you will never want me the way I want you. So stop! Stop making me think that we have a chance when we clearly don't" he gasped and cover his mouth "I'm sorry. I'm just tired of keeping myself together"

"I'm sorry Ron. I'm sorry for making you feel this way. I don't want you to think any of that. Okay? What me and you have is something that I would look forward to every day. I don't mean to make you think that I'm ashamed. I'm just so fucking scared about what people would do not think. What if someone hurts one of us? What if my dad doesn't accept me?"

I could still hear him whimpering. This made me so upset, I've never felt like this before it was like everything was my fault. Probably was...

"Ron look at me" I said and he faced me. His eyes where puffy and red. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" I said and wrapped my arms around him. He was tense, but after a while he wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly.

"I'm sorry. I'm glad you're here"

"Me too"

A/N
Hey >~< . I'm. Back. :))
And as an apology of my "out of nowhere exit" I have uploaded 2 chapters at a time