Little White Lies | Book 4

Chapter 21: Lost And Alone

"So, what was all that?" He asked through clenched teeth. My entire body froze, and my heart sank into my stomach. "Harry, I-" He cut me off. "How long have you been cheating on me? How long have I been loyal to someone who didn't return the favor? LOOK AT ME!" By now, we had everyone's attention. Some were laughing, some were shocked. I looked up at him, tears stinging in my eyes. "I'm so sorry." I spit out between sobs.

"I'VE GONE TO HELL AND BACK FOR YOU! I SLEPT IN A DAMN CHAIR FOR TWO WEEKS, JUST TO MAKE SURE YOU WERE OKAY! I WAS THERE FOR YOU WHEN NOBODY ELSE WAS SINCE DAY ONE, AND THIS IS YOUR THANKS?! I TURNED DOWN EVERY PERSON WHO ASKED ME OUT, OR SLIPPED ME LOVE POTIONS, BECAUSE I LOVED YOU SO MUCH! BUT NOW, I SEE NONE OF THAT WAS WORTH IT! YOU WEREN'T WORTH IT! NEVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!" He screamed.

I never thought I'd see that side of Harry. As he stormed off, I sank to the floor, sobbing into my hands. No one showed me pity, but I didn't deserve it anyway. People glared at me, and began walking away, muttering things about me. Some even went out of their way to bump me with their legs as they walked by. But, I deserved it. I deserved the curse, and all the pain I've gone through.

After a few minutes, I got up, and ran to the only place I wouldn't be bothered; Moaning Myrtle's bathroom. Luckily, she wasn't in there when I walked in. I made my way over to the sinks, and curled up under them. There, I continued to cry. Harry had every right to break up with me. He had every right to say the things he did, because all of it was true. I was disloyal, and I wasn't worth it. Now, I could never kiss him, hold his hand, cuddle with him, or cry on his shoulder ever again, and it was all my fault.

As much as I hated Malfoy, I couldn't blame him for my mistake. I chose to love him, while Harry was clearly the boy I truly loved. I was just like my mother; a liar, and a cheater. Love shouldn't have been part of my life, because I only abused it.

My thoughts were cut off by the sound of gurgling water coming from a toilet. "Oh, it's you," Myrtle sneered, as she glided from the toilet, and into the air. "You're girl that stole Harry's heart from me." I wiped my tears, and shook my head. "No, Myrtle. I made a big mistake. I am the worst person in this entire school." She frowned, and moved a little closer. "What do you mean?" I let out a sob, before replying. "I stole his heart, and completely shattered it, all, because I was stupid enough to think I loved someone else."

"So, the two of you broke up?" She asked, trying to sound casual. "Yes, Myrtle! He broke up with me the moment he found out!" I snapped, impatiently. She grinned hopefully, but quickly replaced it with a look of fake pity. "Who was the other boy?" I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. "Draco Malfoy," She giggled, and sat across from me. "You chose that over Harry Potter? Wow, you really are dumb!"

"He's nothing more than a filthy coward. He practically ruined my life, and all for what, a stupid promotion?" She frowned. "Promotion?" I shrugged. "Not important. He literally gave me a pair of cursed earrings for Christmas, which made me so sick, they would've killed me if it weren't for Professor Dumbledore."

"Well, if you would've died, I suppose I wouldn't mind if you shared my bathroom with me." She told me, sympathetically. "I'll have to keep that in mind. I'll probably be lost and alone for the rest of my life. What's the point anymore?" She glared at me, and shot back up into the air. "So, you think I'm lost and alone? I may be a ghost, but I still have feelings! You're just like everyone else! You don't understand!"

Then, with a loud wail, she was gone, and I was alone once again.

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That night, when I returned to my dorm, all the girls glared at me. Well, all of them except Hermione. She gave me more of a guilty, and confused look. I decided to ignore them, and walked into the bathroom to change.

Once I was settled in my bed, I pulled the drapes closed around me, and continued to silently cry. After a moment, the drapes were pulled back, only to reveal Hermione. "Riley, I'm sorry." She whispered, sitting down. "Why are you sorry? It's my fault." I replied, hiding my face in my pillow. "It's not entirely your fault. You were tricked." She told me. "Yeah, but I fell for it. I knowingly cheated on Harry. I broke his heart. You wouldn't understand."

I felt a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "As crazy as it sounds, Harry is just as upset. He doesn't understand what happened, and you're the only one who can help him to. I'm sure if you just sat him down, and explained-" I cut her off. "What makes you think he'll listen to me? He doesn't even want me to speak to him anymore!" She grinned a little. "That's what he wants you to think. He was caught up in the moment, and his emotions got the best of him. I don't think it would be too hard to win him back, considering how much he loves you. Anyway, goodnight, Riley." She stood up, and closed my drapes, before walking away, leaving me to wonder if she was right.