I took his warm hand and my mind raced back to that warm afternoon so long ago. I was hopelessly devoted to Edward and nothing could have come between us. Jacob was with me and we walked along La Push, the warm air tasted sweet and intoxicated me with each inhale. Something felt right that day, it was a feeling I'd never felt before. Peace. Nothing was making me nervous, I had no impending doom above my head, everything felt right. His warm fingers laced around mine and the feeling of peace evaporated into the atmosphere. I spun to look at him, and he flinched. His eyes were sad and I wanted to hug him but something was preventing me from doing so. I turned and carried on walking listening to the sound of the birds chirping.
"Bella, you can't blame me for trying. I've gone through seasons with you and nothing's changed but the weather. When are you going to realise we're right? I know your not happy with him but you seem to be convinced you are. All I want is you to be happy and I want to say I'm okay without you and that as long as you're happy I am. But I can't. If I said it I wouldn't mean it. The only thing that keeps me going is the false hope that one day we'll work out and everything will be okay. But as time goes by that hope fades. Bells, I love you. I always have, and I will keep waiting for you."
I was back in the now, back in reality Jacob and me were on La Push again, the day was almost perfect. The sun beamed down on us and a light breeze danced through the trees. We walked in silence for a while, that sense of peace swept over me again and I felt flutters in my stomach. His warm fingers found their way to mine and I held on for dear life. This time nothing was stopping me from being with him. We carried on walking late into the evening until we sat and made a bonfire. The flames danced in his eyes and the burning embers brought out the most beautiful colours, I couldn't look away from him. The little child behind those eyes was my favourite part of him. He acted mature around the others but when he was with me, the child inside him came out. He looked so content staring into the fire, nobody else mattered then, nobody but him.
"Bells?"
My head jerked up to see him staring at me. The flutter quickly returned, how is it possible for someone to just look at you and make you feel like you're flying?
"This afternoon when I took you here I held your hand. Unlike last time you actually let me. Bella, there's something I really want to do if you don't like it all you have to do is stop me. Close your eyes."
My heart kept into my throat. He was going to kiss me. I thought of Edward and how we'd just broke up but then I thought of what he did to me. He lied, he got Jaspar to control my emotions. All my good memories with Jacob flooded my mind and I closed my eyes. Then he threw me in the water.
