Hold Me Over

Eighteen

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted anything in the last few days, classes and school and parents have been taking up most of my time, but I'm back now! So here's another chapter for you lovely folk

CAMILA

"I don't want to go back without knowing when I'll see you again" I say, but it's muffled against Normani black jacket, my tears making it shine. Normani just rubs my back and says soothing things to me

"We will be back soon Mila. It'll all be fine, I'll be back in L.A. with you and the rest of the girls and it will be perfectly fine. We will be fine you don't need to worry about anything."

"I'll be worried I'm missing you because I know it will hurt. A lot"

"Shut up," she says fondly, and then she sighs "I'll miss you too."

She pulls back only a little bit to place a kiss on my lips "Now," she says and gives me a push, go get on that plane."

I look up into her brown eyes, I can see the tears she isn't letting fall. I nod and place one hard, desperate kiss on her lips, when I pull back I give her a small smile and I feel more tears hot against my cheeks "I love you."

Normani smiles "I love you too," she leans in again and places a soft, way to short kiss on my lips. "Now go, Camila."

I nod and turn from my girlfriend and start taking steps toward the doors, heading back home with an unknown future.

***

I slept and cried for most of the plan ride and Lauren was blasting her Lana Del Rey looking out the window. As much as I hated her right now I wanted to know why she did what she did. She turned us in without an apology. I wanted to know what was up in her dumb head.

So I dried the tears that were falling from my eyes and walked over and pulled out her right headphone

"Hey! Oh... hey Camz" She said slowly looking me over as if to see if I was going to hit her, I wasn't planning on it.

"Hey. OK I seriously only have one question for you. Why? Why would you tell Simon? I mean what kind of thing did you think was going to happen? To all of us Lauren"

"I thought ya'll were going to be smart about this and break up."

"Why couldn't you just get over yourself and be cool with it?"

"Because I like you Camila," she says slowly "I've had feelings for you since the X Factor do you really think that I would be OK with youbeing with anyone else? You didn't think about my feelings at all, Camila"

I let her words sink in, in a way she was right? I didn't think about how she would feel if I started dating Normani, I knew we had some type of thing going on back when we were on the X Factor but ohmygod why didn't I talk to her about how much she felt about me. God, I'm so foolish. I deflate almost instantly and I put a hand on her shoulder

"I'm sorry Lauren... I didn't even think about you in this situation, I didn't realize how strongly you felt about me. I'm sorry I didn't realize."

Lauren nods her lips in a tight throat "it's fine,"

"No, it's not. Come here" I put out my arms for her.

It takes Lauren a minute but then she hugs me back full force and I'm smiling because I missed her. I missed this. I feel Lauren begin to shake in my arms and a sob comes out of her and I feel it in my bones I hold her closer and Lauren sticks her head close to my throat and I can feel her breath against my skin and Lauren just seems so small and so incredibly young that it makes me wishper to her that things were going to be OK and it will all end well, I was starting to use Normani references as I spoke to her, Normani was always better at this than me.