Supernatural AU-No Destruction~Robyn and Lilliana~ BOOK TWO

Chapter Thirty-Two

~Lilliana~

How dare she imply that I'm different or that I've changed? I know who I am! I am me! After all, she was probably just jealous that I didn't have some freak boyfriend. Unlike hers. Enough about her. Time to think about work. Things with Jackson have been going really well, actually. He's been coming over a lot and Alice has been fairly quiet about this whole situation. It makes me wonder if she feels negatively about Jackson. To be fair, though, it's not her decision. Or Robyn's. It's mine. I am free to date who I like. Jackson is just so amazing. I'm surprised that nobody can see that! Thinking about the future, I can just see one day, Jackson living with us, being like a father to Alice. It'll be great. Just like a proper family. The life I've always hoped for. Not all this hunting crap. I don't need to deal with that. I need to get as far away from it as possible. And if that means taking a step back from everybody I know from my past, then so be it. I just want to be happy.

At the moment, I'm really into Drake. I don't know why I've never been keen on it before. His music is so good. Jackson introduced me to him again and I don't know, I just really caught onto it. He's stayed over quite a few times now and it's starting to become a regular thing. To be honest, I don't know why I ever liked rock or indie. The genres I used to like stink. Clearly, I'm 'changing' for the better. Robyn doesn't know a thing about music... Or who she dates. I'm just so done with her, and everyone back at that bunker. Starting a fresh.

~Dean~

Sam and I were just at the bunker when Robyn burst in, tears falling down her face. She looked devastated. "Robyn, hey, what's wrong?" Sam jogged over to comfort her, holding her in his embrace. "Lil," She started. Oh God. What was this? What did Lil do? I swung my head up to tune in. "She's so over you, apparently," Robyn looked up at me, rolling her eyes at the thought of Lil. "What?" I asked, wondering what the hell this was about. Lil, over me? Pfff. Things were going really good last time I went over there. Silence fell again. Robyn cried more into Sam's chest. They were tears of fury. "I walked into that place. And I swear it wasn't her. She's changed. She got this fucking boyfriend and she's completely changed. Lil is gone!" She yelled, frantically gesturing. "What do you mean 'changed'? And... boyfriend?" I started to feel rage waver over my body. No. No fucking way. Lil was mine. And Alice... I, I mean, I know I said she should find somebody that treats her better, but that doesn't mean now! Not after I said everything was going great! "Dean, she doesn't even wear her slippers any more! She doesn't have that geeky personality. She's not cute, she's sorta cold. And poor Alice. Yeah. A freaking boyfriend who she met at the ice cream parlour called Jackson." I was speechless. "Ice cream parlour?" Sam questioned. "Yeah. She works there now." She explained, leading me to roll my eyes. "Great. Freaking fantastic!" Robyn paused for a little, then said, "Wait, Dean. She's not yours anymore." Shit. That hit me. "I know. But I just can't bare the thought of her in some other guys arms, okay? I need her to be safe with me. I need her-" I had to stop myself before this built up into crying. Slowly, I turned away, to go to my room.

Photos of us together were still on the top of the drawers. I scanned through them and noticed her Panic! At The Disco t-shirt lying on the floor. For a while, I stared at it in disbelief, then I picked it up and inhaled the sweet odour of elegant perfume and the unique smell of my soulmate. This is literally worse than getting stabbed. Because nobody is physically stabbing you, it's just stabbed feelings. Which hurt mentally, but not physically. How could she... Have a boyfriend? Don't get me wrong, she's extremely attractive, but, she's gone. She's... She's not mine anymore.

~Robyn~

Poor Dean. He needs to let Lil go. She's not his anymore, and he needs to realise that. I've never seen him so heartbroken, though. Sam and I got a cup of coffee and sat in the library, talking about things with Lil for a bit. We eventually came to a decision that we should just let Lil get on with things and she'll figure herself at some point. And as for us, well, we need to continue hunting. So does Dean. Calming down about Lil is another thing, but we'll all get over it. She's not part of us anymore. Everybody needs to get used to that.

~Sam~

Okay, so the question I have is, why Lil? Out of everybody, I never though Lil would change. It would take a lot to change her whole personality. At least, I thought that way. Guess I was wrong. I'll have to talk to Dean later, because I know that he's having a pretty rough time.

Away from that, I've been thinking about the wedding a lot. Y'know, just planning ahead a bit, like where we're gonna do it. When we're gonna do it. Yeah, we still haven't decided on a date yet. Which I guess isn't really that convenient yet, but still, we're getting married, so maybe it shouldn't take forever. I want to mention it to Robyn at some point, but obviously not now, because of things going on.

It's eleven o'clock when I knock on Dean's room door. "Come in," I hear him mutter. I slowly creep in and sit down next to Dean. "Hey. You wanna talk?" I asked, as he sat with head in his hands. "She's not here, Sam. She doesn't love me."