Cherry
"You ready?" My mom asks walking into the room
I look up from what I was doing to acknowledge her presence.
" I was born ready" I reply sarcastically with a smile.
She shakes her head before leaning against the door way, playing with her car keys in her hand. I know she was ready to go she's been here with me at the hospital for two days straight, only leaving to shower and change clothes. I was definitely seeing the change in her and I must say I was glad for it, she was finally acting like a mother who actually loved her child.
I grab my jacket that hung from the back of the chair right next to my bed before glancing around the room one last time.
"Now I'm ready" I say making my way to the door glad to be getting out of here.
"About time now that I think about it you always did take your sweet time getting ready, that used to work my nerves but your daddy used to always tell me to hush up about it because apparently I did the same thing..I miss him" My mom admits speaking the truth, I was always the last one getting ready but the first one up.
I look at her as I catch her wiping a tear from her left eyelid, it never hit me how much daddy's death meant to her and how hard it was on her, she always put on this tough front like she was okay with it, but now I'm beginning to see otherwise. I hug her tightly knowing the pain she was feeling oh so well.
"I miss him too ma..so much".
The ride home was quiet but yet still peaceful, instead of feeling tension between me and my mom like always i felt something much different this time, i was pleased to be in her presence. I must say it felt good to feel loved again. After what seemed like forever we finally arrived to the House, the home i once dreaded coming to. i smile at the sight of it, this place had so many memories the good and the bad but despite that it was home and it would always have a special place in my heart.
Happy to be home me and mom raced up the drive way to the front door, sad to say she won.
"damn mom i didn't know you could run that fast" i laugh out of breath, that was a little work out!
"I ain't that old now, mama still got it boo you better recognize" she replies leaning against the door out of breath as well, Mama was trying to act hard but sure was looking extra tired.
"I know that's right Ma, but don't play you know that worn you out, lil kankles probably on swoll..when was the last time you ran anyways?" i ask with an arch eyebrow playful bumping her with my hip.
"Girl please, i used to run track back in the day that ain't nothing! and girl you better quit playing with them little bony hips that shit hurt" my mom replies cracking me up while she struggled to open the door.
Before we entered the house my mom surprised me by pulling me into a big bear hug, kissing my face like she used to do when i was younger.
"I'm glad your home Cherry...I love you" she spoke getting teary eyed
My heart grew warm inside, it felt good to hear that..it really did.
"I love you too mom..thanks for coming to get me i was lost with out you" i admitted for the first time in a long time.
We hugged for a long time before pulling apart, i think we were both starting to realize how much we really needed each other.
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I stood in my door way for a while looking into my room before actually entering it, i feel like its been forever since i been here. I was staying with Randy for a while too ashamed to come home too ashamed to face my mom knowing what i was doing was wrong but i couldn't help it, still can't some part of me still feels fucked up inside...i may not ever be the same.
