Poetry

Now Do They?

A flurry of doubt

Comes right about

With those words of love you shout

And my minds left in a drought

How can I have trust

When my past attempts have been a bust

So I'm sorry but you must

Find a way to adjust

To my broken down state

Cause you've come far too late

I've been burdened by too much hate

To try and appreciate

The little things in life

It's just too much of a strife

Words are sharper than a knife

They cut me when I sleep at night

Bandaged up and broken down

You never will see me frown

Cause my tears make a golden crown

And drape me in a shimmering gown

Rowing down a river of sorrow

I say "Things will be better tomorrow"

Finding happiness to borrow

Making sure that me cover is through

All of this may be a shock

And honestly its a lot that's being unlocked

So for all those times I said I didn't want to talk

It's because I was trying to block

That fact that I should

And that I could

Get help and you would

Act like everything's all good

Cause what are you to do

When someones going through

This kind of crap and you

Never even knew

But don't feel too bad

Cause I know you're just as sad

And who am I to add

To those feelings that you had

So please don't feel too many emotions

If you wake up and I'm drowning in the ocean

This was just one motion

That came from a few notions

So thank you for your words

That helped my emotions when they blurred

If you thought I never heard

It was because my thoughts had slurred

To the point where I couldn't even apologize

For all of my nasty lies

That I like to hide behind

Every time I start to cry

Late nights they get to me

And I still search for a way to be free

Cause all of my empty pleas

Are tied and hung from a tree

They choke out a few words with one final breath

Something about a long forgotten death

But who would have ever guessed

That it was an innocent youth placed under that eternal arrest

Childhood was a much simpler time

Where nothing even cost a dime

And you never know your future was more sour than a lime

And stealing a toy then was the worst crime

Your teenage years is when it gets through

That life can be very bitter to you

Those pure innocent flowers of your youth

Wither and die once you learn what you pursue

Will get you nowhere in the world

So while you can give it a whirl

Go ahead and get ready to hurl

All your dreams out the door with a twist and a twirl

Cause no one cares about what you want

If you try to follow you dreams you'll get a taunt

They want you to have something that you can flaunt

Or your whole family may be shamed and end up with a haunt

Of whispers and rumors of their failed kid

Who they shunned and eventually they hid

Hopes and dream they all slid

To a bottomless pit hidden by a lid

Made up of social norms

Because "How dare you break the form"

It brings up a storm

That forces you to transform

Though this isn't all I'm upset about

Prepare for me to scream and shout

Cause now without a doubt

I'm going to let it flow out

Insecurities is another thing

That in time age will bring

One thought will stick and cling

And those memories will come out and sing

They tell you everything you did wrong

Humming a very special song

Informing you about how you're not strong

And that you and your words don't belong

From this melody all you can learn

Is that you went ahead when it wasn't your turn

And you were too annoying when being concerned

People say you're fine but yet you still burn

From those actions you took

Cause you got a second look

And realize you should have stuck by the book

Your vision is blurring and this feeling cant be shook

You look so stupid

Why weren't you lucid

You're finally ruined

Just cause you let yourself loosen

Mistakes fill your lungs

And you can hear the death drums

As a knife chops off your tongue

Then those tears start to run

Though for now this is coming to a close

Remember these words that I chose

Because soon they may be disposed

But no one ever know

Now do they?