Poetry

The Time Flies

You never realize how long it's been

Until you check the dates and see
Nearly 2 years have passed but you still haven't written

There's that story you forgot about

Which you used to love

And show off with pride

There was that smile that shined so brightly
Which everyone complimented
Until you shut your lips and locked it away

There was the twinkle in your eyes
But it faded with time
As with everything else

And how long has it been

Since you last talked
To some of your closest friends

It turns from days 

To weeks 

To months

For some, years
But do they even remember?

No, but you do. 

3rd grade you let him borrow your sharpener
Not to mention your favourite
You didn't see it for weeks

His excuse was he forgot it at his grandmas
Though, it was no problem

Because you got it back eventually

That was sometimes the case
But as the grades went on
You lost more than you gave

So you stopped giving so easily in the end
But you never realized that

Until you watched the time fly

2nd grade you'd been bullied

And didn't even realize it was anxiety

That kept you from speaking up

In the end, it was you who got in trouble
And it seemed like that's how it always was
So you just kept quite

Kindergarten, you broke down in class
Because your mom had fought with you

And told you not to cry

Though, you did anyways
And no one had know why
Because you didn't want to get in trouble

And you never noticed how long you didn't talk

Until you turned 16

And took a look at the clock

6th grade the popular girls invited you to lunch

It was the best thing ever and you left your friends for them
While in the lunch line you saw their faces

Betrayed, looking at you hoping you'd come back
But you just give a small smile and keep walking

Cause your mom didn't like how one of them acted

She thought it was odd for a kid to act as they pleased 

And for them to not stay within the boundaries
And so you two drifted

And before you knew it 

She's not even your friend
And its been four years since you've hung out

7th grade you make new friends
Because you really didn't fit anywhere else
'Cause you weren't really into love or makeup

But you already left your old friends
And you don't even know what happened to them
So you're stuck inbetween

Your new friends are cool and you hang out

First sleep over you cry your heart out
Because the anxiety lurks

They try to keep up with you but its 4 am
So they pass out 

And you play with the cat

That morning was your brothers birthday

But you'd only gotten no more than an hour of sleep
And then slept through the next 5 hours

Before you know it
The days over, the cakes gone

The wrapping paper is shredding and the fireworks are done 

You met a new friend

Simple enough

She was kind and bubbly

The kind of person you wished to be, huh?

You talked and you talked 
Then she slipped her way through

Then she takes a turn on you

A stab, a jab and you're less than pleased

But you continue on because you don't want to look mean

In the end, she took much away

And you still hate her to this day

Especially for what she would say

To tell you when you were in the dark

That "you just need to break a few hearts"

What kind of friend leaves you afloat
As they said away on a perfectly fine boat

Now its a year later

You turn back only to see 

You had slipped away from reality

And that moment was all that it took

To realize

Maybe your life wasn't as it looked.