Dear diary,
Today was a long day at school and I haven't really eaten anything today, but. . . I guess that's good. I just wanted to. . . write something real quick before I was off to bed. So hear it goes.
Dear diary,
I'm fourteen and I always feel so nervous
Tell me why is it that everyone is so perfect
While I feel so worthless,
And they look so happy
While lately for me my mood has been so crappy
And I have come to believe all the things that I'm seeing
On magazines and TV,
Of every single perfect being
All the girls with perfect bodies,
And such amazing skin
Oh
How I would kill to live the life that they are in
I've been trying to lose weight over the past couple of weeks
Throwing up after meals on the rare times that I eat
But that isn't enough
I still need to do much more
To get this guy to notice me,
People wonder what for?
There's so much room in my tummy for food that it isn't funny
I don't want to be people's dummy,
But either way I feel dumpy
Most of the time I am left here,
Just thinking to myself
Oh
God is it worth it,
Or do I need some help,
LIke. . .
I've been used by guys
I've been hurt by girls
I've been hit by my mom,
And cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight,
Just trying to be perfect
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it
I've been used by guys,
I've been hurt by girls,
I've been hit by my mom
And cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight,
Just trying to be perfect
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
I'm twenty three and I just came across my old diary
I opened it up but I don't really know what inspired me
To do this, but I did and was instantly in tears
To think of how lost I was during those young years
And that guy that I mentioned back when I was fourteen
He's my fiancé now
I guess that I'm living a dream
WE got a small house a nice car and a good life
But my arms are still scarred
From using my own knife
But he accepts me as I am and he knows about my past
And after all of that
He still says that we're gonna last
And I love him
I love him
I love him
With all my heart
I honestly couldn't take it if we ever got pulled apart
If I could say one thing to me
AT age 14 It would be that
"You'll find a guy who will treat you like a queen.
It gets better then it is.
Don't worry about your size.
And never think you're alone.
Someone out there hears your cries saying."
I've been used by guys
I've been hurt by girls
I've been hit by my mom
And cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight,
Just trying to be perfect
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it
I've been used by guys
I've been hurt by girls
I've been hit by my mom and
Cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight
Just trying to be perfect
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
