If I Stay

Results and Affect

"Nevaeh, I got the test results in." She paused. My stomach dropped. My stomach started to form knots and it was becoming upset. I didn't want to hear the words that were going to come out of her mouth next.

"The doctor called and he really didn't want to tell me over the phone but I begged him too. When he finally gave in, he told me. He told me that with looking at all of the test results and everything, it came out to be that you have Acute Leukemia. Luckily you're only on stage 1." She said and I nodded my head. I was took shocked to say anything. "Nevaeh, please say something." She said. She placed her hand on my knee and I looked at it, then looking her in the eyes. I got up and still kept looking at her.

"I,I um well I um am going to go upstairs to my room and think about this and take it all in." I said and she nodded her head. I ran the whole way upstairs and to my room. I shut the door, through my bag on the chair and laid down on my bed, head first. That's where I started balling and now this is to the point to where I am scared. I am scared of what is going to happen to me next. Am I going to get really sick now? Am I going to get so sick that I am going to die? As I laid there, so many questions were running through my head. I just wanted them to stop but every time I kept thinking about the questions to stop, I would start to think of it more. 

Nate POV

I was out with Sammy and the Jacks. Neveah has been on my mind all day and I can't get her off of it. My phone started ringing and when I looked at it, it was my mom.

"Hello mom, what's up?" I asked her. She sniffled. "Mom, what's wrong?" At this point I was getting nervous, anxious.

"Nate please get home." She said and I looked at the guys.

"Okay I'm on my way." I said and hung up the phone. The guys were looking at me. "I need to get home. I don't know why. Something is wrong. My mom won't tell me." I said and they nodded their heads. We ran to the car and got in. I drove home. I was afraid to know what was going on. My nerves were starting to get to me. My stomach was in knots. 

When we got back to my house, I parked the car and ran inside with the boys. We ran into the living room and my mom was in there. 

"Mom, what is going on?" I asked her and she looked up at me. "Is this about Nevaeh?" I asked her and she nodded her head. I sat down on the couch and the boys stood around. 

"Nate, she has cancer." she said and my stomach dropped. I wanted to break down and curl up into a ball right there on the floor but I couldn't I needed to be with Nevaeh.

"Where is she?" I asked my mom and she looked at me.

"She is up in her room." she said. I ran over to the stairs and up and to her room. I walked in and there she was, curled up in a ball, crying. I ran over to the bed and she looked at me. She got up when she noticed that it was me and gave me a hug. 

"Nate I am so scared." she said and I pulled away from the hug so I could look at her in the eyes.

"I know Nevaeh, I am scared too, so is mom. You will get through this. We will do everything it takes to get you better. I will be there for you, every step of the way. You know I will. I want to be there for you. I have to be there for you. I should have been there for you in the beginning." I told her and she nodded her head but stopped and made a face, the face she makes after she realizes something. 

"No you won't. You won't always be there for me. Before you know it, you will be back on tour again. You will leave me here. Leave her by myself with mom. You say that you're going to be here for me and you never are. I'm surprised you haven't left already." she said to me and I looked at her. 

"Well I am here now. I plan on being here for you. I don't want to go anywhere and  I won't go anywhere and I promise you that I won't go anywhere. I want to be here for you." I said and she looked at me. 

"You pinky promise me that?" she asked me as she held out her pinky and I looked at her. I raised my pinky up and linked mine with hers. 

"I pinky promise I will be here for you and I won't go anywhere." I told her and she smiled. There was a knock and I looked over at her door. Sammy and the Jacks were standing there. 

"You can come in." she said and they did. Sammy went and sat behind her while the Jacks sat at the end of her. 

"We all will be here for you. We promise you that. We will always be here for you." Sammy said and she turned to look at him and she smiled. 

"Thanks." she said and he nodded his head. 

"Always." All four of us guys said at the same time. Hopefully all of them mean it.