Life After Faith

#Day1

Dear Faith,

What have you done?
I don't understand, you seemed happy?
Is it my fault Faith? I made a mistake of not paying enough attention, didn't I?

A couple hours ago, your mom called me. She seemed sad and very angry, I have never sensed such emotions in your mom's voice, it terrified me as if something bad happened. She then informed me of the death of my dearest friend, you.

I immediately jumped in the car and raced to the hospital. There you were, lifelessly laying on a hospital bed; Beautiful as always even with dark circles under your eyes, pale face and no hint of ... life. There you were, dead.

Despite the huge pile of sadness filling my chest not allowing me to breath, tears still refused to fall, I stayed silent and in shock. I am sure that my face is now blue due to the lack of oxygen but that's of my least worries.

My best friend, my Faith, my bubble of happiness killed herself. I simply can't accept what is happening right now. You cannot be dead, we have a whole life ahead of us. We haven't even picked our prom dresses or went to the beach to rate boys' abs. There are so many things that we haven't done yet.

Wake up Faith! This isn't funny anymore. It's a joke, right? It has to be a joke. You couldn't have killed yourself not before talking to me.

Faith, it has been 18 hours now. Your mom couldn't stare at you anymore, at her daughter's lifeless body, she went home. I am waiting for you to wake up, the doctor came in about 30 times and each time he comes I tell him "One more hour, please".
Alright Faithy, you got me I give up. Now wake up please and tell me this is a joke!

This can't be real.

Faith ! FAITH ! FAITH ! Wake up BABY-GIRL! They won't let me stay more. They are taking you, Faith. Please wake up and tell them to leave you with me. Please, Faith... Wake up. 

You're really DEAD. I can't believe that you took you own life. What hurt so much that yo gave up on the most valuable thing to you, your own life? We- Were you ill? How didn't we notice it? Did someone oppress you to do this, honey? I promise you I will find out, sooner or later. 

Faith. Why?

#Day1 dedicated to my ex-best friend whom for unknown reasons I dont talk to anymore; You still cross my mind like you did back then dear #W.

What do you think about the story so far? I swear I teared up writing this, brings so many memories back :( .
Love you xx