Dans pov:
I'm walking down the street, children and their mothers passing me smiling and laughing. I cringe. I haven't been happy like that for at least a couple of years. I smile every here and there, but it's only because I'm watching YouTube. As I said, it's the only thing that makes me happy.
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I continue to walk aimlessly, I just walk and wherever I end up is a mystery. But lately I've been going to the same place, the library. I don't know why I like it so much, I think it's because of how peaceful it is. And the people who work there are nice. I've been there about 5 times the last week, and I don't even mean to. It just kinda happens. It's my main go-to place. A safe place even. I always go at the same time every time, around 4-5 in the morning. Yes I know that it's a weird time to go walking around, but that's just my routine. Well anyway, every time there's this boy I always talk to, his name is phil. He's so, so... I don't know,, what's the word?? HAPPY! Yes that's it. He's always smiling and he's positive about everything I say. I don't know how he does it?! I can't even fake a smile, let alone actually smile.
That boy is interesting as well, he always has a joke to tell and a story to share. But there is something weird about him as well, he's done something to me, it makes me feel like I need to protect him, or be around him 24/7 so no one will hurt him and he's never sad. I don't know what is happening to me. Is this normal?
