Dad Got My Back

Chapter 27: I Remember

"KiKi P.O.V": Hhm today is the day that i slowly begin to pack away memories of me and Vian or memories of Vian. But before anything, i decided to go freshen up a little. I walked over to the bathroom and began brushing my teeth. After i brushed my teeth, i flossed, and then used mouthwash. LOL. Yeah i know i'm kinda a dental freak, i then grabbed my speaker from by my bed. I brought it into the bathroom and began playing pandora. Right now, i'm not going to let a song get me into my feelings. As i undressed the song, "Art Of Story Telling by Andre 3000", began playing. I'm not going to lie, Pandora could've done a better choice as to setting a shower mood, but i don't blame them at all. Why? Because i chose the station. As i began showering, my music stopped and began ringing. I hurried and turned off the shower so i could answer my phone.

#phone convo#
Me: Hello.
?: Is this Ki'anna?
Me: Who's asking?
?: Just wanted to tell you that you're going to rot in hell for having a baby at such a young age.
#end of phone convo#

I hung up because that was odd and creepy. I continued on with pandora and this time decided on changing the station. The song, "Until The End Of Time by Justin Timberlake", began playing and i felt like this song was about to pour my damn heart out as i showered.

KiKi: Listen

Woke up this morning
Heard the TV sayin' something
'Bout disaster in the world and
It made me wonder where I'm going
There's so much darkness in the world
But I see beauty left in you girl
And what you give me let's me know
That I'll be alright

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

You've got me singing
Oh whoa, yeah
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody sing
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody singing
Oh whoa yeah

Now if you're ever wondering
About the way I'm feeling
Well baby girl there ain't no question
Just to be around you is a blessing
Sick and tired of trying to save the world
I just want to spend my time with you girl
And what you're giving me
Let's me know that we'll be alright.

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

You've got me singing
Oh whoa, yeah
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody sing
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody singing
Oh whoa yeah

This one's for the lovers
If you're out there let me hear you say
Yeah, yeah, yeah
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
This one's for the lovers
If you're out there let me hear you say
Yeah, yeah
(Yeah, yeah)
This one's for the lovers
If you're out there let me hear you say
Yeah, yeah, yeah
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
This one's for the lovers
If you're out there let me hear you say
Yeah, yeah
(Yeah, yeah)

Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
That would be enough
Until the end of time

I was in the middle of washing my hair when i realized that a tear fell from my eyes. I took a deep breath and continued singing in the shower because the next song that played was, "DRuNK by Zayn". Thank you lord for allowing me to wake up another day.

KiKi: We're so late nights
Red eyes, amnesia, on ice
Late nights, red eyes, amnesia, I need you

Right now I can't see straight
Intoxicated it's true
When I'm with you
I'm buzzing and I feel laced
I'm coming from a different phase
When I'm with you

Run away now
Like we're supposed to do
Take you to the back now
I take a shot for you
Wasted every night
Gone for every song
Faded every night
Dancing all night long

Drunk all summer
Drunk all summer
We be drunk all summer
Drinking and flowing and rolling
We're falling down

We're so late nights
Red eyes, amnesia, I need you

Right now I'm emotional
I lose control, when I'm with you
I hope I haven't said too much
Guess I always push my luck when I'm with you

Run away now
Like we're supposed to do
Take you to the back now
I take a shot for you
Wasted every night
Gone for every song
Faded every night
Dancing all night long

Drunk all summer
Drunk all summer
We be drunk all summer
Drinking and flowing and rolling
We're falling down

We're so late nights
Red eyes, amnesia, on ice
Late nights, red eyes, amnesia, I need you

Drunk, drunk, drunk, drunk
Drunk, drunk,
(You put your drinks up)
Drunk, drunk, drunk, drunk
Drunk, drunk, drunk, drunk
Drunk all summer
Drunk all summer

I got out of the shower and dried off. Today is starting off good besides that creepy ass phone call. Just as i was brushing my hair out there was a knock at the bathroom door. I turned down my music and opened the door. To my surprise it was Beautiful.

Beautiful: Hey sis, i see that you're up and smiling.
KiKi: He wouldn't want me moping around all day.
Beautiful: True. You got pretty big.
KiKi: Yeah, i go find out the gender soon.
Beautiful: Soon as in?
KiKi: Soon as in thursday.
Beautiful: Omg really?
KiKi: Yep.
Beautiful: Are you going to tell mom the gender?
KiKi: Nope. I want the gender to remain a secret to everyone except for you.
Beautiful: I feel special, but i'm glad to see you smiling.
KiKi: I'm glad to be smiling.
Beautiful: Well i'm about to head out to go grocery shopping, any request?
KiKi: Yogurt and pickles please.
Beautiful: I got you, see you in a little.

I smiled and she closed the door on her way out. I continued to brush my hair. I then lotioned down and got dressed into once again house clothes. About ten minutes later i decided on going through pictures of me and Vian. As i went through my folders on my labtop i ran into a picture of us when we were younger, i would say eight. Yep eight, i remember those pig tails. As i continued clicking through the pictures, i realized how we really did grow up together. I went from being tomboyish to girly and nerdy through the years. Damn. Memories have good and bad emotions on people. But mines right now are good emotions and i'm loving the feeling that i'm feeling. Why? Because right now i don't feel alone.