I'm So Sorry For Falling In Love With You

Ch2 - Worry

It's been three days since Austin last saw Jeff, and guilt started creeping its way into his subconscious.
Maybe he reacted too harshly.
Maybe he shouldn't have yelled at Jeff.

Austin knew Jeff had been crushing on him for a while now, even though Jeff never explicitly stated it.
It was obvious, however, in the way Jeff stared at him when he thought Austin wasn't looking, in the dreamy tone of his voice when he spoke, the proud look on his face when he managed to make Austin laugh.
It scared the hell out of Austin.
That was what made him lash out in the first place.
That was what made him lie to Jeff and push him away.
Fear.
Fear of the fact that he might not be straight at all.
Fear of the fact that Jeff Fabre was in love with him.
Fear of the fact that Austin himself might actually love Jeff too.

Fear of not knowing what would have happened if he had kissed back.

Austin checked his phone. Still nothing from Jeff. He hadn't even posted on his social media.
Worry washed over him.
He thought about calling Ian to see if he knew how Jeff was doing.

And then it hit him.

Ian isn't Jeff's roommate anymore.
Which meant Jeff was all alone at home, alone to deal with his emotions and Austin's rejection.
Austin swallowed a lump in his throat.
What if something had happened to Jeff?
What if Jeff did something reckless?
What if he was-
Austin's heart dropped at the mere thought and he shook his head.
Jeff is smart enough not to do anything like that.
And yet, something in the back of Austin's mind poked at him to go over and check on Jeff, just peek through his window and take a look.
He shook his head again and ran a hand through his hair.

No.

"Worrying is pointless," he thought, "Jeff knows better. I don't need to watch over him."
He took a deep breath, unlocking his phone again.

Still nothing.

Jeff wouldn't do anything drastic over something as pointless as this...

...would he?