JOSHLER

A change

A/N
Ok me and my parents were watching the Olympic diving on TV (well they were forcing me to but still) and after Tom daily (a (gay)British diver) did a really good dive he had a massive hug with his diving partner, and it was like a really massive hug. Well anyway my dad called tom daily a bender and I was really confused at first. I don't know if he meant it offensively but it REALLY pissed me off. I have no idea at all if my parents are ok with LGBT coz we've never really talked about it but if they're not then I'm literally gonna not talk to them for a VERY long time. Ugh I just feel like shit now coz I really want to ask my dad about what he said but I can't I'm 2 anxious. And honestly lately I think there's been something wrong with me and I'm really scared, I've been getting really nervous about the stupidest things and I've been having loads of panic attacks and I don't know if I have anxiety or what but I'm getting more pathetic by the minuet. Sorry wow that was really long I just really needed get that off my chest coz I have no one to talk to I'm lonely ok I'll stop now.

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JOSHES P.O.V

"Hey, Josh?"
"Mhm" I murmur, still scrolling threw Twitter
"I have a new song" he says nervously "and I want you to hear it"
"Of course babe" I say excitedly and head over to the piano in the corner of his living room

He sits down and slowly presses his fingers into the black keys on the piano and clears his throat.
"Oh Mrs. Believer, my pretty sleeper,
Your twisted mind is like snow on the road.
Your shaking shoulders prove that it's colder, inside your head, then the winter of dead..."
As he sings softly I drift of over to the drums and start playing along with his beautiful words.
As he finishes the last verse of the song his face beams into a contagious smile. I get up from the drums and plant a gentle kiss on his lips "that was amazing"
"Your amazing" he says back and I kiss him again.
I slide my tung across his bottom lip, pleading for access as we head over to my bed, still mouth to mouth.  After our heated make out session about half an hour later Tyler gets an unexpected call from his basketball coach.  The phone call Is only short but his voice gets very shaky very quickly.
"What was that?" I ask ty in a worried tone
"I'm screwed." He sobs
I run up to him as fast as I can and give him the tightest hug I've ever given. I have no idea why he's crying, but he doesn't like crying in front of people so this must be serious
"Shhhh, ty we have each other. I'll take care of you, you know that?" I murmur in his ear, drawing circles on his back with my finger, just like he does to me when I'm upset. He shakes his head and looks up at me
"Its to much, this is it. It's only down hill from here and there's nothing I can do" he says bluntly, crying sweetly
"What do you mean?" I ask
"I'm off the team. They don't want me to play in the league this year. They have a guy who was in the winning team of the league 2 years back, and he's playing in my position."
" oh my god ty, I'm so sorry. I know how much this means to you"
"No it's not that. It's that it was my only job. Now I'll have no flat or anything, I'm officially broke" he sobs again
"No ty! I'm here for you ok? You understand? We're not gonna take any of this shit from your coach. It's time to step into the big wide world and have fun" I say like a little kid
"How?" He asks dryly
"Well let's see, you have the most amazing voice EVER. And you can play 2 instruments. You have a heartbreaking backstory to tell the press, what more can you want?" I laugh
"Your point is...?"
"Oh come on, you already have like 2 CDs worth of your own songs, why don't you go put them up online and see what happens?" I say enthusiastically
"What so you want me to be a pop star?" He cry laughs
"Do you have much choice?" I say and walk over to fetch my laptop
I put it on his knee and give him a hopeful look
"Now do it, seriously you have something special Tyler Robert Joseph, and I'm not gonna let you get away with it."