a collection of unprocessed thought

10 August 2016

Hi this is me trying to figure out my sexuality in words. Even though it shouldn't really matter all that much it's been bothering me lately.

I'm almost certain that im asexual for one, sex has no appeal to me whatsoever. The thought of  cuddling or kissing has some sort of an appeal, but anything more than that is out of the question for me i guess. I hear my irl friends talk about it a lot & it just makes me very uncomfortable. Everyone says teenagers are always horny & thinking about sex but it's the last thing on my mind..

But on the other hand i still feel attracted to people. I find people of all genders attractive though, and that's what confuses me.

I'm not gay, but i might be a little gay..

Or pansexual?

Idk.

I just really appreciate beautiful people. 

I think it's hard to tell which genders im attracted to when i have no sexual impulses.

I have no friends i feel comfortable talking about this with, and i certainly wouldn't talk to my family about it, so here it is written down where no one will see.

Basically i'll probably just spend my entire life ignoring & being confused about sexuality.

Agh