Rants and Other Things

im sorry

i know i just posted something but idk. im sorry. and i know this won't be read by anyone. i feel alone and the bad thoughts are sorta taking over. i don't know who i am or what im doing anymore. i keep snapping at the girl i love more than anything and i keep hurting her. i don't want to hurt anyone including her. god she's my whole entire world. i love her so much and i care about her a lot too. but i keep fucking up. everyone would be safer and happier if i just left. maybe i should. idk