Rants and Other Things

over

I'm so tired of everything. Sometimes I'm sorta happy but not really. I'm supposed to be happy and not to have these awful thoughts anymore. I'm rarely ever happy or satisfied with anything. I might be for just a little bit but then its gone and i feel so much anger. I hurt everyone i meet and destroy everything. Everyone would be happier and better off i just disappeared. I wanna be on my own and not know anyone. I wanna start over and have a clean slate. I'm over everything and i just wanna leave it all behind. even the few I love and care for. But then again I'm probably to much of a coward to actually do it.