Butterfly

Fourteen

Suga' s point of view

"I can't take it anymore YoonGi!!" My girlfriend of three years yells at me as tears stream down her lightly pink cheeks. "I'm sick of you coming home like this. You always smell like alcohol these days." She cries.

"I'm sorry. It's..."

"I don't care. I'm done. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of you. This, us." She sighs.

And I sit on the edge of my bed looking up at her. "Mina I'm sorry." I sigh. I think I'm close to tears. My head falls in to the palms of my hands.

This is the girl I have loved for three years. The first one I have loved. And she wants to leave. She was the part of me changing. And I'm falling back into my old ways. I'm braking a promise that I made before dating her. I can't hurt her. But she had broken a promise to me, isn't it fair I do the same?

"YoonGi?" She kneels before me running her small hands through my hair. "YoonGi?" She asks again. And I finally look up at her. "Your eyes are red. I'm sorry."

"If you are going to leave me please just go. You staying here doing this is not helping me. I don't want you to go. But if that's what you chose them do so. If you chose to stay then I'm still here." I sigh. "Just please go if you are going to leave me."

She stands and stares at me. "YoonGi..."

"I said leave if you are going to leave me. Don't stand there and try to talk to me. Your are making it harder than it needs to be. So answer me this, are you staying or going?" I look up at her. It hurts me to do this but I can't take this. If she goes she goes.

"YoonGi..."

"That's not a fucking answer!" I shout. "Answer the damn question!"

"YoonGi... I'm... We... You are father."

"Fucking lies. I never had sex with you. I told you I wouldn't. And I still won't. Now get the fuck out. You are pissing me off!" I stand and shove her. Not too hard but hard enough to make her stubble.

"I'm not lying. You come home drunk everyday. I'm sure you wouldn't remember."

"I wouldn't dare touch you in that way. I told you wouldn't and I'm owning up to that. Now fucking leave."

"YoonGi..."

"No! Fucking leave. You are lying and you know you are. You said you wanted to leave now you want to stay? Huh? What do you take me for a fool?"

"No but what else do you want me to do for you to change. I thought if I lied to you would be forced to change." She sighs.

"Get the fuck out!"

"YoonGi..." She grabs my arms.

"Get out!" I struggle to get her off me. So I walk over to the door with her still on me. Opening it and pushing her out. Slamming the door.

Her pounding on the door could be heard through out the whole apartment. "YoonGi!!!" I hear her cry as she hits the door harder.

"Fuck!" Shout as I pick up a glass beer bottle and throw it at the door.

I pick up another and throw it as well.

I sit back down in the edge of the bed resting my head in my hands.

Don't cry YoonGi. She isn't worth it. Don't cry.

I tell myself.

Me, a father. Ha. Funny. I saw her cheating with me last week and she is done with me. I wanted so badly to keep her. But I couldn't do it. So I started drinking so that I could forget seeing her with that.....that guy in alley. Every time I saw her face all I saw was him and her. It was time to give up on her anyway.