Who are you Jill Smith?

Chapter 2

It was gym time and we were playing dodge ball.

I was already out before half of the game. I sat down on the bench with the other guys that got hit.

Jill.

I found myself thinking about her again. And whenever I do, I get annoyed. I get annoyed all over again and I don't even know why. A part of me regretted saving her this morning. I should've minded my own business like I always do. If I did, then I shouldn't have witnessed all of that and I wouldn't be thinking about it now. I wouldn't be feeling this way, so bothered and so preoccupied for no reason.

She was a total bias. It's almost as if Finn was the one who saved her, not me.

Speaking of the devil. As I sat quietly at my bench, I saw Jill watering the flowers at the school garden. I found myself staring at her. Her long thin hair glistened under the sun. I watched her move and observed her form. Her height was average and she looked thin and fragile even with that thick sweater covering her. There was absolutely nothing special about her, she was just an average looking girl--a geek even. She may even be a loser, considering she is in fact my friend's stalker and how she doesn't seem to have any friends. Maybe that's why I'm acting this way, I feel bad for her--pitied her. In the end, I got up with the intent of asking for a thank you from the event that occurred this morning. As I started to walk towards her, I couldn't shake off the feeling of relief that Finn was nowhere at sight. Maybe I just wanted the glory to myself. I wondered when I started feeling so greedy about matters such as these. 

"Hey stalker." I called out to her.

Jill turned to me with a confused look on her face. "Ah, hey..."

"Whatcha doing, stalker?"

"Can you please stop calling me a stalker?"

Looking at her made me remember all those moments when I caught her looking at Finn. How I've noticed her for so long now, how I knew how she felt about him.

I couldn't help it. It was all I could think about whenever I look at her or think of her. It was a fact that I couldn't ran away from.

"You like Finn."

She paused as if she heard something that she didn't want to hear. 

"Why does it matter to you?" She answered.

She didn't look at me. And it made me feel more annoyed than before.

"It doesn't really matter to me if you do like him or not." I said, finding it weird how i couldn't bring up his name now. "I just feel bothered whenever you'd stalk him. Quite frankly, it's weird."

Jill didn't answer. She just kept watering the flowers and didn't say a thing. It didn't take a while before I felt bad from what I said. I insulted her without an actual reason why I did.

"Sorry." I said in my breath, actually meaning it.

There was a long pause, but then, Jill suddenly spoke as she turned to me. "It's fine...I'm sorry that you feel that way because of me. But I wasn't stalking...I was just trying to approach him. But every time I get the chance to say something to him, I get scared and ended up not doing it."

"Why on earth would you try to approach him?" I asked, although I already know the answer. Something in me clinched, like I was preparing myself for an impact. It's so weird to me why I'm acting like this with something I already know, but just wanted to hear it for myself.

"Because I like him." she said.

I grinned, trying to the hide the discomfort on my face. I already knew, but why do I feel so uneasy about it?